So im new to this site, but i need somewhere to vent some thoughts and feelings ive had for years. First I guess ill intriduce myself. Im a rock/metal guitar player. I feel this title best illustrates who I am. Guitar and rock/metal music are my only passion in life, it is what drives me forward and has kept me going so far. I love it. Anyway, playing guitar in a band is all I want to do with my life. However, I feel like that dream is moving out of reach more and more as time passes by. Its my parents. They are supportive of my music, they know I am good and have the ability to do this. They are so straight and narrow about life. Im being forced into college, which is of no interest to me whatever, and Im workin a shit job most nights of the week. I feel like my dream is slowly being siphoned away. I get so paranoid when I cant play. I used to spent hours and hours a day practicing, now I dont have enough time to practice like i need. Its want to just drop out of life. I want to end everything. I feel thats my way of taking control. Its all or nothing for me. I was born to rock. If I cant be successfull with it, ive already failed at life. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mM-5n5WHhMY
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There’s all sorts of applicable knowledge that can be gained from college – music theory, business (any band is actually a business – unless you don’t know shit about that aspect of the industry you’ll end up a pawn being used by the power brokers – if you ever get noticed – and then thrown away like trash when they’re done with you) then there’s production and engineering … kid there is SO much being offered to you to help you excel and succeed at music – all you have to do is embrace it and soak it in like a dry sponge
kid – life IS learning – from start to finish – get as much of it in your head now before shit gets real.
shed dawg
Damn u are really good maybey you could take music classes or something
FYI – Gene Simmons sucks as a musician – but 30 years later, he’s got a TV show, god knows how many businesses, most successful, he’s put out countless albums and oh, he’s on tour with kiss – AGAIN … he KNOWS business and the industry and he turned his mediocre talent into a freaking LEGEND – there WILL be plenty of time to hone your skills along the way – I promise.
step by step dawg
For some reason, the phrase, “Sweating Bullets,” comes to mind.
Just sayin 😉
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nPGA3vjMLgE
racer dawg
hey man, paul gilbert is one of my favorite players. Didnt think i would find someone on here thats into shred guitar. check this out or some of my other youtube vids and tell what you think
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ezbod0wa7ac
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uMfUV5Vcn1g
let me tell you this
im a guitarrist myself
drummer before
i just broke up wth my girlfriend
she bitches and tells me how her mom is buying her sexual clothes, finding older guys… etc
i too thought of suicide
but then again
i wouldnt be able to chase my dream
life is shit ill tel you that
but the part of life is how you get to laugh in its face once youve made to your dream
dont give up
just keep at it
WAY at it
Great song Orangish 😉
I’m more Dire Straits, but for the purposes of this thread…
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Keep playing. Go to college. Continue playing. Get organized. Allocate time each day – schedule your days, btw – so you have a period where you can play a bit. Write music about how stupid the corporate world is. Sell CD’s.
Fulfill dream.
Wow, you’re really good. I’m a rock and metal head too. I have the same dream but I don’t even know how to play the guitar yet. I’ve been trying so hard by learning through the internet. I wish you could teach me! Hah. Someone needs to. Don’t give up on your dream, I have faith in you!
Money for nuthin and your chicks for free … hellz yeah babeee
I’m such a baby ’cause the Dolphins make me cry dawg
you are really good. would be a total waste of your talent to off yourself. you actually have something you are good at and are passionate about. your a step ahead of some of us on here. im assuming you live at home? and that is why your parents are having such an influence on what you should do. id compromise with them maybe? take a very light load of classes something easy to take on..i guess they are also forcing you to work at the shit job…keep the hours light on that too if possible..and spend all other time getting yourself and band? out there… spend all free time on getting or acheiving what the ultimate goal is. i wouldnt say this to just anyone on here..but seriously.. wait a while… you have a gift and it would be a shame to throw all that away.
thank you, that means alot