Sorry!

keyvahfish 7/21/2012 - 10:36 am

You are an amazing person inside and out. You are an incredibly strong person and take pride in that. Never let go. Trials never last forever. Forget every negative thing in your life. Smile and think of everything you have to live for. It may not be much now but if you search hard enough you will find something to live for. And it’ll be worth every moment of your life. And you’ll be happy with the decision you’ve made. To go on even though life has it’s struggles. Life is an amazing gift. And yours is precious. Don’t give up on yourself. I believe in you. And I know your probably thinking “she doesn’t even know me” but that doesn’t matter because when somebody is on your side and believes in you, you don’t have to know them. Nothing is your fault. Nothing at all. Smile..

Dawn 7/21/2012 - 10:58 am

Thank you.. I can barely stand to hear someone get agrivated without wanting to cry… It killed me the way they were screaming at each other… I couldn’t move… God it still hurts. I’m sick of the fighting.

sansespÃ©rer 7/21/2012 - 6:55 pm

I just read your other post. Wow. You’re DEFINITELY not the problem, nor should you feel the need to apologise. Stepdad sounds like a world class douchebag, but I know that your mother probably can’t or won’t do anything about it. Women can do some crazy stuff when they’re under a man’s spell, even if the man in question is an absolute pig.

Other than trying to get some sort of circuit breaker such as a counsellor or the authorities (which may in turn cause its own problems), which I realised just after I made my last post to you, all I can suggest is to try and avoid the situation and aim to GTFO as soon as you can. I know you love your Mom and probably want to help her, but if she’s not willing or able to help herself, use what little energy you have and exercise some self-preservation.

All the best.

orangish 7/21/2012 - 7:03 pm

I’m with sansespÃ©rer… there’s no excuse for that kind of treatment. Even just getting stuck in the middle of parental disputes is uncalled for. I grew up in that kind of dynamic, too, and I know it’s not easy to believe it, but it’s not your fault.
Not your fault. At all.
You have nothing to feel sorry for.

softsoul 7/22/2012 - 4:35 pm

Dawn you sound like you’re HSP. A Highly Sensitive Person. I am so I know the feeling…it’s like the argument is inside you. You may want to read up on it. It will help you with you gifted radar that you haven’t learned how to navigate yet.

Your presence is giving your folks the opportunity for compassion. You have nothing to be scared of. You’re allowed to express your feelings. Tell them to stop fighting…tell them the better they look after themselves & the happier they make themselves, the happier you’ll be.

They will contribute to your well being by being happy themselves. When I see people being happy, when my girlfriend is happy, I’m happy. Your presence is powerful & a gift, 100%. When you move towards what scares you it lessens the power it has over you, so you are in charge of your experience, & your experience or whatever is happening is not in charge of you. Take care! You deserve peace & joy! That’s what we’re meant to experience BTW.

Dawn 7/22/2012 - 8:17 pm

Thanks for that, the first paragraph. Telling them that won’t help. My stepdad doesn’t give a shit about me and my my mom thinks I should get over myself. And My mom doesn’t WANT to fight… I’ve had to be there while she cries about it… Again thanks tho… It’s great that I can talk to people who understand… <3

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