Well… I know I should have life made for me. I’m part of a middle class, happy family. I come from a tradition of academia. Intelligence is highly valued. I go to a fantastic school, and everyone thinks I’m going places. Before this year though, I was bullied since I was young, around 7. I have never had a high opinion of myself, and about two years ago I started feeling more andore miserable. I withdrew from everyone. I now believe I was depressed.
I am a weak person, and I have done a terrible thing. I again feel like taking my own life. What is the point of everything? There is so much suffering in the world, and I feel powerless to stop it. If anything, my death would make the world a better place.
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Good morning to you Diving…..
It sounds to me like you are suffering from a SELF-INFLICTED wound of sorts. And the guilt is tearing you up inside. THAT I can relate to.
(hopefully) without sounding all preachy – you DO know that whatever you did – it isnt too bad. There have been murderers, rapist, even CANIBALS who have turned their lives around. I dont know what you did and you sure as heck do NOT have to tell me. But you DO need to ask for forgiveness to whomever you did wrong to. That way you can finally forgive yourself – and that is very hard to do.
I hope you have the strength or find the strength to ask for forgivness.
I’m there with you in agreeing the world would be better of without me. I smoke I give nothing back at the moment. I fel the world is overpopulated that if I die it will be a better place
Thanks for your advice. I have already asked for forgiveness though.. and it has not been granted. The situation is escalating and I feel like a coward. I won’t do it though, I think I’ll get through it. Thanks again.