A poem/song that I wrote 3 days before being admitted into a hospital for a suicide attempt.

I can’t even function
I mean there’s no reason
Why try for no cause?
Fuck everything, fuck it all
I give up
I can’t keep up
No motivation
To keep me going
I’ve tried so hard
Only to be let down
My heart’s broken into shards
I guess this is punishment
For having hopes high
While my feet were on the ground

My lips can’t crack a smile
My throat can’t muster a laugh
It’s been a long while
Since I’ve been put down this bad
I guess I had it coming
I should’ve read the signs
I guess this is my fault
Since it always is
I’ll blame it all on me
A girl who shouldn’t have believed