I moreless want to write this post to encourage someone else! I’m still battleing suicidual feeling real bad and if that one guy would email me back and tell me he found a gun, id leave work to go put an end to it all… but honestly I’m tired of it all! I really want out! I kno there’s two sides of me speaking. All I kno is if I have another attack like I did the other night I will end up doing it! And really deep inside I just want a peace of mind and true happiness more than anything. So the day has come when I’ve promised myself and a few others that I will go get help. I’m going to admit myself in the hospital today. I’m scared to death but I’m also so very desperate that ill do anything for true happiness and a peace of mind. I hope that others on this site will get help in one form or another, it hurts me so bad to kno that there are others that go thru the same hell I go thru day in and day out!
Take care everyone! 🙂
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That’s brilliant to hear ItsJustme. I know how distraught you were the other night over the gun and all that, and I’m so glad you’ve decided to seek help. This is the best news I could hear from you. I hope the hospital shows you some genuine care, sadly this is not always the case where I live, but just taking that first step is the best thing you can do for yourself right now babes. You were in a terrible state and now you’ve calmed down by the sound of it…even enough to give us a smiley, well done and good luck today, keep us posted if you can! I for one will be glad to hear from you. Zx
Thanks Louise. I have calmed down quiet a bit… I took a few sleeping pills that night and ended up sleeping 15 hours which honestly helped a lot then worked a 12 hour shift with my residents that are worse off than me, then went to church a couple times today. But I do want to say I’m so sorry for those posts the other nite I felt like it was one of the worst attacks I had ever had… thank God I didn’t have a gun right then.
Hey-
So so glad to hear you are going through with it. Please keep me posted.
I’M SO HAPPY FOR YOU !!! I really do hope they give you the right medication and all. Goood lucckk !!! <3 <3
Thank you so much y’all!
Nice to see you how you’ve progressed. Heh
I’m so proud of you!
I’m so glad you have decided to get some help, just remember it takes time to find the right people to help you. You have to be persistent.
You are worth it, you deserve the peace you seek, and one day you will have it.
God bless!
Best wishes to you. I will pray for you.