Why I choose to die:
I am an emotional drain on myself and everyone around me.
I feel stuck like this will always be my life, it will never get better.
My husband feels trapped with me; like he is stuck with me because of the kids. I feel the same with him.
I am a horrible mother; there is no positive thinking technique that will convince me otherwise, even if the depression is the reason. There is no excuse for not being able to stand being around my children.
I can’t provide the love to them that I so desperately needed growing up and didn’t have.
Why I choose to live:
My children, what if losing their mother really is worse than being a bad mother
My mother-already lost one child to suicide could not bear to lose another.
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Reading this bought tears to my eyes…
It’s really sad to hear that you feel this way… I myself have days where I feel the exact same way.
I know that no matter what ppl say, your feelings will most likely remain the same..
but I believe that life has so much out there for you… maybe something good will come your way? I am hoping so anyways…
Hang in there… things will come good
Hi, Choose to Live clearly wins, being an average mum is better than no mum 100%.
A ton of husbands feel trapped, and vise versa, that’s human relationships for ya,
not all shits and giggles…. Please hang in there….