I posted on here a while ago. Thing’s have gotten worse. My doctor has basically told me nothing can be done to help me. I have major treatment resistant depression. I have had it for over 10 years. My doctor suggested i come off all medication as it is not helping me. I am going through the worst withdrawls and he doesn’t care. He wont help me unless i see him again and pay him a ridiculous amount of money. I only saw him fairly recently and am only due to see him in 3 weeks. He refuses to talk to me on the phone. I have had it with psychiatrists. I’ve seen at least 7 and none of them have helped me. I had ECT treatment at the beginning of the year as a last resort. It didn’t work. I have been suicidally depressed for over 6 months. I now feel worse than i ever have. I have tried everything to get better and nothing works. I am 31 and i’m tired of living. The suffering i’m going through can’t be put into words. I feel like i’m in hell and nothing can take away the pain. I even try drinking and taking large amounts of strong painkillers but nothing gets rid of the pain. On top of all this i can’t sleep. I feel like i’m losing my mind, in fact i’m sure i have. I feel totally hopeless and don’t know what to do next. I’ve already wasted half of this year and a big part of the last decade! I can’t go on…is there anyone who can help me? I’m desperate!!!
5 comments
I’ve seen one thing work on someone in a condition so bad it’s terrifying(didnt know her personally) she said she had no hope and now she… She isn’t better but she said most of the pain is gone she said she feels hollow but everyonce in a while she doesnt notice that life is shut she said she isn’t better but she’s better then worse :/ she stoped trying to kill her self. It almost never works and most people can’t even do it but if u really are desperat enough to try anything u may as well give it a shot
It might not even make sence but here it is: your supposed to see what happy people do and mimic it kinda :/ when ur kid decideds to roll down a hill like an idiot go roll with them, when someone does something obsurde and thinks its fun do it to make ur self think its fun do things out of the ordinary and active u have to find a crazy side of u that has energy in a state to bad this can be potentially dangerous to people around u but try using ur imagination push to be imaginative and try things like sky diving things that cause adrenalin in the mind of the man who made this idea whhen u are depressed for to long I’d body starts turning of and it needs a jumpstart like a car … U have to force ur body to turn on do something active and adrenalin filling and lie to ur self if u have to make ur self turn on tell ur self it’s fun tell ur slef it’s exhilarating and that u love it try going snowboarding it speak matter what age u are when everyone is walking on the board walk try walking on the side rail set it self different it’s not suppose to make u happy or fix depression just pull u back over the line of completely lost with no hope …. Idk what to suggest it worked on one person it can work on two really think of it as jumpstartig a car… And like I said most people wont even understand this it just won’t click in there minds how u can just do it but with nothing left u have to see that the only thing left to do is to just do it if there happy try doing what they do maybe just maybe u might crack a tiny smile then u force it into a hole smile because even if it’s fake maybe one day it might be real that’s how he saw it
I hope and I will pray to god that it somehow miraculously helps I’m sorry I wish I could help
boy do I wish I can help you.
First of all, you need to look for a different doctor, your ‘treatment team’ can make all the difference. He sounds like an idiot, the one you have already.`
I tried a million therapists, and then stumbled across one who just got me, never thought that was possible. (I never go these days though..) but anyways. Try finding a doctor that understands, you. Have you tried talking therapy?
I really get how you feel, which is why I don’t have any magic answers, as a lot of what you said is very present for me too.
Drinking makes it all worse.
You should focus on one thing at a time, maybe the first thing to focus on is your sleep. and that’s it, nothing else, for now. Can you get sleeping pills, or hell, valium for a wee while? Lack of sleep makes everything so much worse..
every breath you take hurts. I get it I am just living through it right now is my best moment since I have been depressed it stilll goes down after but not like how I had been lets say around 4 months ago. like you. but my depression has not been as long as yours well I am pretty young it could be. but I understand if I felt like this plus my lowest moments ten years ugh thats just horrible. try to find things or a thing you might enjoy in life. I enjoy walking long until my feet hurt. its something. more you find and do the things will get brighter. if you commit suicide you lose and life goes on. try a mental intitusion if you are at your lowest moments I wish I was locked up I could have done something to myself and I don’t want that now plus you’ll meet people who are also going through mental illness