I have been suicidal for at least two years now. I cannot stand to be alive and i have NOTHING to live for. I have no job, i live with my mom (im 33), i have no friends, no partner, no money, my family treat me like an outcast and i have no motivation or excitement in my life. I want to die but cannot for the life of me understand why im still here! Oh, and by the way im not religious. Does anyone else here have the same problem? Ive even chosen my method to exit this world but i dont know whats holding me back. By the way ive been majorly depressed for 11 years.
I just have to let off some steam. I know its not a proper post but hey. I have a mother, her name is Liz. She has single handedly ruined my entire life! I know were told to forgive but not in this case. She has stolen everything from me! So, MOM, I HATE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL!! In fact, you dont deserve the title of being a mother. I HATE YOU, YOU EVIL HUMAN BEING!! I will end up dead because of you and you wont mourn my death, not even for a second.
I’m just going to get straight to the point. Does anybody know
whats most effective, partial suspension hanging or cutting major arteries on the arm? I dont want to be in a great deal of pain but i will be getting drunk and taking lots of benzos to make things easier. I’ve had over 11 years of pure torture and its time to end it.
Hi there, i’m not going to bore you with my life story, i’ll be here all day! But just in a nutshell, I’ve suffered from severe depression, anxiety and Borderline personality disorder for over 10 years. I’ve tried absolutely everything to try get better, including ECT. Â Anyway, I’ve been thinking about suicide for at least the last 2 years and I’ve attempted several timesÂ with no luck (obviously!). I really cannot stand living anymore and the pain is unbearable!
Just out of curiosity, how do you know when enough is enough? I see some of you have set a deadline (scuse the pun) for your suicide. How do you decide on a date?
I would greatly appreciate any feedback 🙂
Does anybody know if he’s still alive??
I’ve tried everything to get better. Meds, therapy, at least 7 hospital stays,Â vitamins, diet, ECT…10 years i’ve been in this hell! My last episode has lasted all of this year and most of last year, without a break!! I’m never happy for longer than half a day at a time and that happens very rarely (maybe once a month). I’ve been suicidal for over 7 months since my ECT treatment failed to help me. I’ve seen over 8 psychiatrists and none have helped. My current doctor’s only suggestion was to come off meds entirely (cause they do nothing) and find a new therapist. That’s it. No quick fix, nothing. So now i’m supposed to just hope for the best that therapy can save me even though i’ve tried it for 10 years? And everybody knows therapy takes time, a lot of time to work. I don’t have time! I’m dying every day! I have no hope and when you lose hope you stop trying then stop living. I haven’t been living for at least a year. I’m just a zombie going through the motions, surviving for those who love me (which are very few). I can’t stop worrying for a second, i can’t sleep, eat, leave the house…i have panic attacks all the time, cry for hours and think of all the ways i can kill myself. I hate being alive and i think i’m losing my mind…there’s only so much a human can take before cracking, and i’m very close to cracking. I’m just waiting for it to happen then hopefully this nightmare will come to an end…
I posted on here a while ago. Thing’s have gotten worse. My doctor has basically told me nothing can be done to help me. I have major treatment resistant depression. I have had it for over 10 years. My doctor suggested i come off all medication as it is not helping me. I am going through the worst withdrawls and he doesn’t care. He wont help me unless i see him again and pay him a ridiculous amount of money. I only saw him fairly recently and am only due to see him in 3 weeks. He refuses to talk to me on the phone. I have had it with psychiatrists. I’ve seen at least 7 and none of them have helped me. I had ECT treatment at the beginning of the year as a last resort. It didn’t work. I have been suicidally depressed for over 6 months. I now feel worse than i ever have. I have tried everything to get better and nothing works. I am 31 and i’m tired of living. The suffering i’m going through can’t be put into words. I feel like i’m in hell and nothing can take away the pain. I even try drinking and taking large amounts of strong painkillers but nothing gets rid of the pain. On top of all this i can’t sleep. I feel like i’m losing my mind, in fact i’m sure i have. I feel totally hopeless and don’t know what to do next. I’ve already wasted half of this year and a big part of the last decade! I can’t go on…is there anyone who can help me? I’m desperate!!!
Hi there, i don’t want to go into a lot of detail so i will try keep it short. I have suffered from severe depression for 10 years. It started with a breakdown caused by a split with my boyfriend and i swallowed a bottle of paracetomol. I freaked out and called for help. After that i overdosed again and slit my wrists twice and needed stitches. I was hospitalised on and off for a few years and was mis diagnosed with bipolar type 2 disorder. I’ve seen a number of psychiatrists over the years and have been on every single medication you can imagine and nothing has helped. I have also been seeing different psychologists off and on for 9 years and i have failed to improve. This year has been the worst by far and i was so desperate to feel better i opted for ECT treatment which was terrifying in every way. I lost my memory, was in severe pain and was so confused for months. Anyway, i felt better once my treatment was complete and i was sure this was the right thing for me. The problem was i only felt better for less than 2 weeks! After that i fell into the worst suicidal depression of my life and have been there for 6 months. I have continued to see a psychiatrist who has diagnosed me with dysthymia with major depressive episodes (double depression). I am also treatment resistant and have been told that only therapy can help (when it hasn’t in the past). I have never been more scared in my life. I have been suicidal almost constantly for 6 months. I wake up and wish i was dead. I live with my boyfriend and he is the only thing that keeps me going. I haven’t worked in 9 years, i have no family where i live and i have no friends. I have no interest in anything and just want to sleep or drink to numb the pain. I can’t live like this anymore and have planned to kill myself on many occasions but have failed to due to certain things going wrong. I am 31 and have been dealing with this disease for over a decade and thing’s just continue to get worse. I am in such pain i can hardly breathe. I want to die so badly but i’m scared i’ll mess it up and not succeed. All i think about is death and how i can finally be at peace. I have no life and i’m suffering constantly. I can’t eat, sleep or function like a ‘normal’ human being. I don’t want to be on this horrible planet anymore, i am just so tired of life and living. Can anyone help me, give me advice on a peaceful way to end it? I am desperate!