As you can tell by my new post I didn’t hang myself!! I went and talked to my aunt and she is going to help out. My son and I will be moving into her garage apartment this weekend which is a huge help because she is only going to charge me $200 a month for rent and food! She called her church and tonight I got a huge bag of clothes for Broox!!! Little man is styling in his new batman pjs as we speak.
As I’m writing this Broox is laying beside me sleeping with his little legs thrown over onto mine and I can see a hint of a smile beneath his pacifier as he dreams. His brown curls are draping over onto his long eye lashes and his sweet little face is completely at peace. In this moment, all is right with the world. When I look at him all of those feelings of death and coldness melt away. I realize I can never leave him. He is the reason my heart beats and the reason I breathe in and out.
This love conquers all fear! This love silences the voices of inadequecy! This love crumples the walls I have built. This love softens my hardened heart! This love has saved me!
Hope is spelled C-a-d-i-n B-r-o-o-x <3
—— Layne
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Good luck!
You just brought tears to my eyes, this is beautiful… I knew your aunt would be more than willing to help you out. Looks like she knows that the Church is also a great place to look for a helping hand.
Wow, I’m just so glad you actually went and talked to her. I wasn’t sure if you were gonna.
Guardian – Thanks!
Johnny- It wasn’t easy! I had to kill a lot of pride but hell that’s better than killing myself!! She was so great about it and was only upset that I let things get so bad before coming to her!! The place I will be staying is actually bigger than my current apartment and Broox will be able to have his own room!! Thank you for encouraging me to talk to her it was certainly the right move for us
Yes, yes it is! Today is a beautiful day!!! You honestly just made my day. Thanks for being so strong. 🙂
You have a BEAUTIFUL way with words! Have you ever considered being a writer?
Exhausted- Thanks!!!! Yes that’s what I want to do!!! My dream is to have a book published
That’s awesome! Go for it! You most def are talented!
Fantastic news Layne. I was so touched by your love for your son. I know just what you mean. Children of that age are devastatingly cute, especially when they’re asleep…I guess it’s all Nature’s way of ensuring the survival of the species, that children are made so easy to love.
Glad to hear too about your writing ambition. Snap! The dream of writing a book is definitely one of my reasons for keeping going.Zx
thats great, im so happy youve got your aunt to help, and you have got a son you love and your son has a mother who loves him so much 🙂 you sound like a very strong lady go for your dream of having a book published, you can definilty do it! your post made me feel a little better today:D.