Hey. I’m Nikki! So um I’m not really sure what you’re supposed to do on here so well I’ll just tell you whats going on. My ex-boyfriend is talking smack about me. Saying that I’m easy. That I’m a dirty whore. I’ve been so stressed out about it. On the other hand My father. Yelled at me today… I know what you’re thinking. All he did was yell at you. Well here think about this. He’s been yelling at me, swearing at me, treating me like poop since 3 grade. I’m in 8th grade now. Nothings changed. Tonight at 9pm I broke down crying. 10pm I grabbed some scissors and tore up my arm. I was crying so hard. I was crying for help. I told myself I would never cut again. Forget about that thought.. Then I started thinking about everything. I said I wanted to die.. I didn’t have enough courage though. So I continued crying… I haven’t stopped crying yet….. Â well yeahh.. that’s all I really have to say right now..
~Nikki
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niky you should not have boyfriend better study and stop cutting
It’s my choice. It was a terrible choice, but it’s my choice. Sounds repetitive, but it may seem like I’m too young, but have you notice this generation. It’s horrible.
Hi, Nikki, I don’t live in the US and don’t have much idea of what you are going through. It appears to me that you are unconsciously putting so much pressure on your self. I used to feel much pressure when I was a teenager – trying to please everyone and not disappoint anyone. But you have to take a break for yourself and learn to ignore what others think about you. Currently I have completed college and I learned to be discreet. Take a break and do some thing you enjoy. I suppose schools in the US have many good activities for the kids (where I come from its just studying and marks and rat race.) and eventually you will find some thing you are good at. Even if don’t find any thing you are good at, it does not matter, because you will have learned a lot. Only you can take the first step towards changing your life and you can do it.
I’m in year 8 as well, anywho, your “boyfriend” is a jerk, your father is a horrible man, are there any relatives you can live with? You can always go to the police about your father.
Sorry ex-boyfriend
No. I’m not close to any of them either. I stay quiet through everything. I don’t open up to my family because I’m not the same person they grew up with..