Always seem to be leaving out information. Always seeming to be daydreaming about how gorgeous and how less confusing I’d be if depression, ADHD, aspergers, Bi-polar, and others weren’t knocking on my door each and every time to fuck around. Damn it…that one little light of hope man..I can feel that happiness when I daydream…only to look back in reality and feeling depression swinging right back into my soul again, preventing me from feeling anything…
It’s right there man…that little happiness is still there…Then why the fuck am I so depressed!? It pisses me off! It pisses me off that for a second I can see how great my life would be if I could be free from all my daily negative, disturbing thoughts (whether they happen to be severe or mild) and how it’s annoying the hell out of me that I’m not in that spotlight and feels like I’ll never be!
That itchy irritating, feeling down your stomach…sliding all the way up to your heart…it itches…feels weird, but very annoying, too…You just want to have it so bad. You feel hopeless, because you’re not there. It’s so hard to get there. It’s shitty down here…
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I don;t think you know “where” you really want to be is. If you are not happy where you are right now, you will not be happy when you get to this place “where” you think it will be better. There is nothing in the spotlight. It is a lonely place where no onw stays for very long. If you want to live in the real Light, seek Jesus Christ. That is where the real Light is.