i dont know why im so useless. Im 14 years old and i get akward around people, can barely hold a conversation and cant seen to get along with my family very much at all. Im frustrated in everything! I dont know if theres a god or not, i want a future, but i cant deal with life anymore. Please i cant live with myself. Me and my mom just got into a huge fight, and i feel like a complete waste. I cursed her out and everything. I want to end my worthless life but im scared. What if there is a hell? I think of killing myself and what it would do to my family. I feel like theydont care about me but deep down i know they do. I dont wanna hurt them its just that i personally hate myself. I could never tell this to anyone i know because theyd think i just want attention. I want to jump off a building or blow my head off with a rifle, but im woried about the possibility of a bad afterlife. I need someone to talk to. Ive been holding in this feeling for too long.
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Not trying to undermine you, but I think you should try talking to a trusted good friend or maybe some psychiatrist or something, it’s good you care about what happens after death, and it’s good you think your family cares about you. Perhaps you should try and start getting a better relationship with them if you know they care, and besides, you want a future so you have something to live for, and if your hopes and dreams become true, you will be happier. (Sorry if I’m just rambling, I’m not ‘with it’ today.)
im not being judgy..but it’s a phase..u’ll get through this.
Just stay strong, n try to manage yourself.
email me if u want to talk 🙂
I’m 15 years old and I have being wanting to kill myself for at least 3 to 5 years
I know how you feel – wanting to end it all, too scared to actually successfully do it.
I know how it feels to think of yourself as a waste of space, I’ve thought that for sooo long i can’t remember being happy.
– despite all this, if you need to talk, i’m here
being 14 you havnt experienced much in life. you have the internet, use it to learn. learning makes you an interesting person. learn about more music, about more ways of life. Christianity isnt the only path for many people. learn about more religions or lifestyles. the more you know the easier it is to see others out there who are like you. just keep on. 14 is so confusing cause you still have so much to learn it gets overwhelming.
I know you are hurting, and I am very sorry. I know your pain is real and that it feels overwhelming. Please go to a person you trust and who you believe will listen to you. Explain what you have written here. Keep telling people who care about you until you get the help you need. There is nothing to be embarrassed about. Depression is just like a flu in your brain. You are lacking some important chemicals that are making you feel very sad and hopeless. Trust me when I say that this can and will get better if you get some help. Do not give up on yourself. Give the people you love a chance to help you. Explain to them that the depression is caused by a physical ailment. No one would be mad at you if you got the flu, right? I say all of this because my son got depressed in January and killed himself in April. We are so terribly heartbroken. I myself am finding it hard to want to live, but I also tell myself that things will get better and easier. Please promise to get some help. I am here to talk and email with if you want and need my help. I promise you that if you can get some help, the future can and will be an adventure. I want you to be able to look back in 30 years and say,”I was in a very bad place and I got some help. And look at all the things I would have missed.” Stay here. Get help. And then use your knowledge of how hard this is to help others. I am here if you need me…a loving mom who wants you to succeed.