I’m just-

..Tired. I’m tired of being ignored everywhere.

I’m tired of being ignored in real life.

I’m tired being ignored on the internet.

I’m tired of school and the stress they give.

I’m tired of my parent thinking that i can go in a university with a scholarship.

But in actuality, I can’t. How can i earn a scholarship? How can university even except me?

I don’t overdose in ‘APs’, I dont stay afterschool, I don’t  have much talent, except art maybe.

I’m not taking an art college anyways. My parents doesn’t want me to and what’s the point? These people, professor in any art college, will probably just look down on me due to the fact that i use anime/manga style.

I’m tired of everyone that i know.

I’m tired of hearing them and their 5 aps, their college essay, ANYTHING that relates to school! I just want to scream at them to shut up!

The teachers are the worse, I’m tired of them and their stupid method of teaching and grading.

Everyday, i just want to sit down and do nothing, because i lost all energy to do anything!   I just want to jump. I want to overdose. Something, that would… make me no longer feel so stress out. No longer feeling the anxiety that’s been with me ever since six grade.

This feeling, of wanting to kill myself is becoming more common this year.

But… at the same time, i don’t. I always try and be optimistic and not focus to much on the future.

But, I don’t know any more. ..

I really am just.. Tired.