I am in so much pain inside me it is unreal. I never show it but it is just slowly eating away at me. I sit there and claw and cut at my skin. It just makes me feel so much better. It is the only way to make me feel better. When the first drop of blood hits the floor I feel so different.. so much better.. but then it all comes flooding back again. Is this wrong? Is it right? Help me someone. Please.
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I know your feeling. I used to be the same way, and I still sort of am. I always took cutting as a way to get out of reality, and forget the pain of everything else around me. As years went on, and the scars produced more often, I started to notice, it’s not worth it. Life gets better as you grow older, that’s something you must of heard plenty of times, and I bet it’s completely hard to believe. But it’s true. It will get better, especially if you have someone to help you through it. <3 I love you even if I don't know you. <3
I hope you feel okay now. I don’t know what you have been through or who you are but I love you too, for caring <3
Cutting is an answer, but I don’t think it’s the right answer. I never show my pain, either, and nearly everyone who knows me thinks I’m “the happiest person on earth”. I am not the happiest person on earth. I feel imprisoned, I think that’s how you feel. I want to help you, I really do, but.. Keep writing. It helps me. It doesn’t need to make sense.
Glad to know I help someone. Even though I don’t know why. I hope you will be okay one day. I am always here to talk. Even if I am not the right person to talk to because I can’t even deal with my own problems. But I always listen.
You must love yourself. And if you dont like yourself, trust me its better to do what it takes to BE the kind of person you do like. Then love yourself.
Cutting is emotional release there’s nothing inherently wrong with that; the problem is that cutting is dangerous e.g infections, cutting to deep, and i’m not sure that it’s exactly condusive to a healthy mind.
If you need to feel pain there are other ways. Squeezing an ice cube in your palm causes quite a bit of pain(add salt to intensify) Or there are healthy ways of feeling pain, like exercising, sports etc.
You can’t just cut away all your problems. Eventually you’ll have to find a real solution, so cutting isn’t a good option in the long run.
Be safe <3 Don't cut no matter how much it hurts, speak it out, vent, write <3 do something to keep your mind off and know someone will always love you
Thank you <3 You too.
@trailoroftears –
I’m an old school cutter, I was doing it as a release before I knew there were others out there too. It IS a release, but I would strongly suggest to you that you let someone know that you are going through a lot of emotional pain right now and get some meds and therapy, it really does help.
Honestly there are still times when I’m in a “crisis” and I still cut. It is NOT a productive coping mechanism though, try to hold back from doing it.
Like Scar said above, there’s other ways to feel pain also. I especially love the exercise advice.
Keep us informed of how you are doing. {{{{hugs}}}}}
Thanks. My friend saw one of the cuts on my wrist and mentioned it to me but she doesn’t anymore. I wear bracelets now to cover them up. I don’t really want anyone who knows me to know. I feel like I have let everybody down. I hope you are okay, really. I do try other ways to feel pain, but I always end up cutting again. I am just so.. so confused. Hugs to you too
OG Cutter…LOL! I should change my screen name to that.
trailoroftears,
No! Please Stop! Cutting? Very bad idea! That’s like hitting yourself with a hammer or something! Surely you can pick up a better bad habit than that! Write mean nasty notes or letters on the computer then delete them. But don’t scar yourself up people won’t feel sorry for you they will think you’re crazy. And that would only make things harder on you. Go to the doc and try some medication.
Thanks. I can’t help it though. It just happens when I get angry or sad. Also thanks but I don’t need to see a doctor. Not to sound rude or anything
@trailoroftears: I’ve never cut myself, so here’s a question instead of an answer:
how does cutting make you feel?
why do you cut your body instead of enjoying it?
I’d like to help so I’d like to know something first.