It’s been a while….

That has also been my life’s story. I have raised and accomplished just to end up going down in flames and having to start over. Again and again! Back to square one like that game called “Ladder”. I have come to believe that people that suffer from depression will be forever condemned to relapse so I’ve concluded that suicide is not a permanent solution to a temporary problem but a solution to a problem that will never cease to repeat itself.

@Duke and Animafan157. I’m not sure it’s only a matter of will, perhaps it’s also genetic. I read this very interesting book called “The Happiness Hypothesis” in which the author talks about something called: Happiness set point, which you’re born with. According to this, there is a pre-stablished point on a scale on which your happiness ability will tend to stay. Some have a higher set point than others. A good example I can think of is body genetics. There are some people that are born with the tendency of being fat or skinny and they can of course try to fight against it but their bodies will always gravitate towards the body shape they were born with.

The last few years of my life I thought I had finally bat depression or had at least learned how to manage it, but that was proven to be wrong. I am bipolar and there are very few times where my mood is stable. I’m sick of this bullshit and of gather strength to recover to just fall to the ground once again.
@Scar, you can always intrude. Neurotic or not that theory makes sense. We all have a predisposition for everything: sports, math, diabetes, etc. Why wouldn’t we have a predisposition for happiness?