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My Name Was Brett

by H
written by H

 
Preface: I’m not actually going through with this. I asked God for a sign as I walked with tears in my eyes tonight, he gave me one. At 8:00 pm, I received a internet message from a beautiful soul I hadn’t thought of or had any communication with in years. You know who you are and you did, infact, save my life tonight. Thank you beyond measure.

I was just writing this when I got that message and I think it’s really important that I continue to write this. Who knows what will happen tomorrow. There are no reasons to sit on these words. Words only matter […]

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Does anyone know how it feels?

by heybaby
written by heybaby

Every day I wake up wishing that I hadn’t.

I’m always tired. That fatigue I feel cannot be cured by a good nights sleep or a nap. Sometimes I feel that it will only ever truly be satisfied by death. Does anyone know what that’s like?

To wake up every morning sick to your stomach because you’re alive?

But-I try to bribe myself out of bed. I know that I have to keep myself busy-constantly run my brain because if I stop-those thoughts will catch up with me. I desperately try to find solace in the world. Feel the warmth of the sun, watch funny YouTube videos, draw… but it’s like trying […]

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shatteredglass

by Tormenting Dreams
written by Tormenting Dreams

i dont know when the pain forst began, or if it ever did. maybe i was just born with it. stuck in a life where dead ends is all there ever will be. that everytime i leave it, i get something worse. its become the normal. and sometimes, well most of the time i feel like i need it. like it will always be there and i have nothing without it. it seems to me that i am inviting it, that i look for it. im always down and depressed for no reason at all. and maybe the reason is me. maybe i truely am […]

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i am my own worst enemy.

by whoami22
written by whoami22

So here is my story..

i am a 22 year old female and I’ve never been more lost in my life. I really don’t know why..i have a great family, friends, job etc…but i feel empty, i cant control the way i act, think, or feel. its like someone else takes over and i cant even find myself.  What i find most difficult is to explain how i feel. No words can really express it. I’m usually just all over the place. Say one thing, do another. I’m not exactly sure what i want and I’m very indecisive. i worry about absolutely everything and when i even try to […]

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I AM DEAD!!! MEANTALY!!

by MissCMF
written by MissCMF

I have made the BIGGEST MISTAKE IN MY LIFE!! I NOW JUST WANT TO DIE BECAUSE I KNOW THAT HE WILL WANT ME TO AS WELL!!… I KNOW HE FUCKING HATES ME AND WHAT IV’E DONEWILL MAKE HIM WANT ME DEAD… I DONT KNOW WHAT THE HELL WEHNT THOUGH MY MIND…. IT’S TO DO WITH THE DARK LORD…. THE BOY I CAUSED SO MUCH DRAMA FOR, TWO YEARS!! AND I THOUGHT I WOULD BE ABLE TO COPE BUT NO, I’VE MADE IT A HUNDRED AND TEN FUCKING PERCENT WORSE!!! I NEED TO DIE, I CANT FACE HIM, HE HATES ME AND ALL HIS FRIENDS WILL […]

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It’s been a while….

by holdingOn
written by holdingOn

163 day are down the Goddamn drain, and I haven’t got the strength to start over. Who knows, maybe I’m headed right back to where life ends.

For some unknown reason I always end up right back where I started. No matter how much better I get, no matter how much progress I make; I still end up falling flat on my fucking face.

I am my own worst enemy… I am the one who is pulling my life apart. Piece by fucking piece, and even though I know this; I still can’t seem to stop.

Maybe this is how things were meant to be….

Forgive me for my […]

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I’m my own worst enemy

by Rachel
written by Rachel

I am so completely exhausted by constant suicidal thoughts and fantasies. Anytime I make a little mistake, or when someone’s response to what I’ve said feels off, there’s a voice berating me, telling me, “I hate you, you’re a stupid fucking whore, go kill yourself. Go kill yourself Rachel. Go kill yourself,” over and over and over. Every day. The theory being: “Everyone remembers every little stupid thing you do and they hate you for it. You should kill yourself and make them forget how stupid you are. Don’t tell anyone, don’t ask for help. They’ll never see it coming.” I don’t think I’ll actually […]

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First Thoughts

by AlwaysRejected
written by AlwaysRejected

Today was the first day I ever looked on his website because I used to deny I was depressed but yesterday I was upset about my mom being hard on me and this drama that happened at school and I started cutting. Yesterday it was only with a earring and I didn’t even break the skin but today I used a razer and it feels so sour. I’m always repeating in my head ‘you’re so stupid just f*** off.’ I just always have been feeling worthless ever since one of my exes who was my really good friends before we went out call me a […]

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11:11 (Read If Stuck and/or Depressed)

by St.Patrick
written by St.Patrick

I often see it. They say it’s supposed to be magical, make a wish. I keep wishing, yet nothing changes. I gave up hope long ago, not to mention I despise that word. A word tossed around by fools to reassure themselves everything will be okay. Nothing ever changes. I’m not too fond of people, I actually hate people really. It’s a cruel world with cruel intentions. There is more bad than good, but, then again, who’s to say what’s right and what’s wrong? Society is the biggest pile of shit to ever exist. I don’t know what’s worse, the government or society itself. You […]

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