So today

I felt like shit. I mean I usually feel like shit but today was different. I honestly wanted to jump of the 5nd floor. I just need someone to talk to. Someone who will always be here for me. Someone who would be able to just listen and I can cry all I want and hrkwjdkejxkshdkwkdkanjskskskakskskkskqldnapjlkbkjhkijnbctyhjyd I just don’t feel okay. And I’m really tired of pretending im fine. I’m tired of people stepping all over me. You know what I wanna do? I want to ignore everyone… Just not talk to anyone (except for like 2 people who I love talking to). I’ve been wanting to do this for a while; just avoid any conversation with anyone because whats the point in it? And if people are rude to me, oh man I just wanna snap at them. Just tell them everything I don’t like about them and shit. Ugh, I’m just so tired. Not just physically, but mentally and emotionally too. Why can’t I just die? No one will care and don’t tell you do because you don’t. Nobody will. If I were to die, people would feel PITY for me (and man do i hate it when people feel pity for me. People will be upset for like a month or so; then they’ll just move on with their lives. I know I shouldn’t be complaining because some people have it way more worse than I do but their stronger than I am. I can’t be as strong as them. I’ve tried. I really have but… sometimes you reach a certain point were you just can’t take it anymore and all you wanna do is cry and give up. That’s what I wants do. Just stop trying. Because what the fuck is the point of trying and trying and in the end you never succeed? What’s the point?!  What’s the point of living, of breathing, if you’re going to die one day? Why go through all this suffering? What’s the point of this shit? I honestly  find no purpose  in my life. Why can’t I just give my life to someone who actually wants to live but can’t because they have a sickness (ect.)? I want to become numb. Just… Feel nothing. No happiness, anger, or sadness. Just… It’s like still breathing but being dead inside. Just not feel no feelings toward nothing or anyone. I justwanna go. I need to go. Please God, take me away from this planet.