I’ve read many posts on this site, and the many responses that went with them. I realized that it was the same thing over and over again, someone is hurting and they reach out to anyone who might listen. Then those compassionate few who happens to stumble on the post responds. It’s like an endless cycle, you know? To all those people who are suffering, I just want to say I’m sorry that I can’t help you much. I honestly don’t know what to say to you, “Just stay in the game, it’ll work out…don’t give up”? It’s  not the most convincing advise. So, I just want to say this. To all those who are hurting like I am, close your eyes. Close them shut and drown out everything. All the voices, all the pain, all the heavy burdens stacked up on your shoulders. The alcoholic father yelling at mother, throwing his beer at her. The tears that trickle down your face as you sit on your bed, clenching your thighs so hard it bleeds. The torn up bible in your trash bin. Drown it all out. And when it all goes quiet, breathe in. Breathe in deep. So deep that your lungs ache. Then out. Slowly. And again. And again. And again. This isn’t the best advise out there, it won’t get rid of your debts, the low grades in school, the loneliness of not having any friends or lovers, the way your children look at you. But it is a way to help deal with that sickening feeling in your stomach for a slight moment. Although very short. That’s how I dealt with my problems when everything seemed to be clashing in on me. Afterwards, its back to the shit hole of a world again.
So, good luck my fellow people who are suffering!