When it rains it always brings feelings back to me. I like the rain, no matter how cold it is outside, no matter hot it is. It is dark now and my window is open I am listening to the rain and I am crying. My husband sits in his tv room and readying himself for work. I want to run outside in my underwear and t-shirt, lay on my back on the wet grass and just let the raindrops pelt off my face. But….the embarrassment would be too great for my husband to handle and he’d drag me in scolding me telling me I’m acting like a fool. I know I am an embarrassment and I feel I’m being corrected all the time. All my ideas suck lately and I always back down, apologise to prevent from feeling humiliated. Even though I may be only perceiving persecution I just can’t separate those thoughts in my mind. though I do believe I need to be on my best behavior or I will truly embarrass someone or told to hush. I hate myself. I guess I’m just too old to change. Maybe to go is the best idea of all then everyone will fially be happy.
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do it. I love the rain
*by do it, I mean go lie outside in the rain
Oh I understood haha!
Don’t let anyone stop you from doing something you want to do, it’s not going to damage or ruin anything by going out in the rain and enjoying it! If your husband has a problem with it, with having fun, then that’s his problem, not yours ! I say you should x
Rain is wonderful, don’t listen to your husband, go out there and have fun 🙂
I told him I was going too & he said he probably would just deny knowing me. I just don’t care.
how can you love someone who can’t dance in the rain? I’m from Tucson, AZ….. we all dance in the rain here….. go outside and enjoy yourself…… if he has to deny knowing you……fine….. maybe your next husband will dance with you 🙂
your husband isnt a very good man to you, im sorry he is such an uptight man, you seem like a very mellow and adventures woman, dont let your husband tie you down, if he doesnt support you then he doesnt deserve you.