starting lyrics “Fool without a brain, just a fool without a brain” song Is very lightful definitely one of my coping songs
Why do I have to be so awkward around new people? I don’t really care what they think of me. I wish I would still say, “I don’t care what they think of me.” But I do… And that’s what sucks the most. I get told that I’m funny, but I feel like a fool. I feel as though I’m going though more than half my life in a daze not knowing what to do or say. Ugh, hell I don’t even know what to say now as I’m writing this. Â And I can’t even give a presentationÂ without having a panic attack or choking on […]
Just went on my last holidays, it’s pretty neat here. Two days ago I visited the bridge. The water is almost 4 meters deep and there are strong currents. The currents are something I’d like to have. The stronger, the better. They are so strong they are visible on the surface. The bridge is in the close proximity of something I don’t know how to call in English, but the idea is that this is kind of thing which people use to make water deep or shallow. It’s a barrier for water. The currents are so strong here. I think it will help me drown […]
I know I’m going to get expelled again. But this time I’m not going to wait to see it happen. I’m having my first exam (in this new university) on Monday. I’ll take it. And then I’ll end it. Even just now, instead of getting myself ready for the upcoming exam, I’m just sitting here and staring straight before me. Every moment sucks. Every damn moment. I can’t get over the thought that I’ve chosen the cheapest way to die, and the most ridiculous. Drowning myself in a laundry basin, bullshit, huh? I’ve even been working hard on it, made a few trial runs, to […]
I have intentions to be productive for myself. I want to be helpful and do right, for myself and others. I like to impress and make people around me proud. I have a standard to live up to. My family expects my fullest respects, and endlessly utter my continuous responsibilities. My friends just expect me to be there. Usually I’m quiet, but if I’m around long enough most are bound to get a piece of my mind. After that I kind of just do what it takes to blend in. Even though I’m more than use to sticking out. The feeling is like: hope–To be […]
Set your gazes to the sky,
Look your sadness in the eye.
I don’t believe you want to die,
Silly, crying child.
Brace yourself against the ill.
Stand strong and ignore the chill.
Placate the monster with a pill.
And you with life will reconcile.
Warm yourself in rays of sun
Set tasks that can be done
And then you’ve normalcy won
If you go that extra mile
Bring yourself to places new
Take great care with what you do
Beget another friend or two
It will be easy after while
Build it up, build it high
Your life should now reach the sky
Live now not as a […]
1 let me drift in to the night
2 see my finel light
3 forget the things i said
4 let me go to bed
5 let me sleep for ever
6 in a land were no one wakes
7 ill do what ever it takes
8 give me a gun or a hamer
9 i know thers no glamer
10 in a bloody deth
11 my finel rest
12 cant undo the damig don
13 all the batels now deth hasÂ now won
14 take my soul fly up hiy
I see people end it all around me
itsÂ suffocating knowing your next but in some way saying yer its cool I can do this I don’t care
shoot me now for all I know im a drunk hiy fool in a life he never deserved so tonight next week moths time ill be gone unless I fined some thing worth doing… this for……. if im honest I don’t know what to do now nor what im doing now for fuck sake iv lost it all all it takes is one biff and bye bye mother fuckers im off I don’t know why I bother doing aney thingin […]
I was in love with this boy. He had black hair, bright blue eyes, and scars on his arms. He held me in his arms everyday I saw him. He grabbed my hand when he saw hopelessness in my eyes. He kissed me when I felt alone. What else could I have asked for? When we were in bed naked, lying next to each other, he’d kiss the scars on my arms. The bruises on my hands. The burns on my wrist. I was in love, so deep, that I would have never imagined the day to come that he’d no longer want me. Love […]
I thought my depression was gone; then reality bitched slapped me in the face.
Had a real shitty day today, found out my SAT scores weren’t high enough, made a fool out of myself in my language class, and got into a fight with my mom.
I feel like a failure, like all that I worked for is falling down the drain. I feel helpless.
I wanted to throw myself from the car on the expressway today, but was too much of a coward to do it.
I feel lost. I just want it to end. If life is just gunna do this my whole life, I […]
I wont even know how to describe it. All those ways how I was acting made me feel extremely embarassed about myself. I thought I was missing out on a lot, and I tried to catch up. But instead I was making a fool out of myself. After we stopped talking, I tried to fit in, but it would only lead me to feeling more embarassed. I never cared about the future, but now I pretty much began disregarding the flow of time. It became scary for me to leave the house. I was getting progressively depressed and anxious. I tried therapy, but I never […]
I know there are people with bigger problems, but this is really bothering me.
Hereâ€™s a short description of me: Iâ€™m 16, average looking guy, average at sports, not a nerd, very smart, good person…this is me:
My parents think that I have a great life and a lot of friendsâ€¦but Iâ€™m just acting so they donâ€™t have to worry about me. My dad is the problem. He treats me like a kid and everything is my fault. If he gets mad at my sister, I must suffer too. I can see that almost everyone from my family and cousins see a huge failure when they […]
Well people it’s a clichÃ© that we born to die, but is true we have moments but always the end is dead, so what is the problem with smoke? What is the problem with uncontrolled sex? What is the problem?
We spend all our life trying to find a way to live more years or to be healthy… Life is more than that and maybe that’s why we are here in this site screaming and begging to someone’s support and a shoulder to cry, we are a symbol of self harm because we choose it unconsient.
I know how hard is but please take my […]
Well where do I start. I havent been on here for a while, mainly because I dont have a computer or for that matter much of anything in life. I just had a lot on my mind today and had to reach out to someone who could understand. Haha I just decided to quit smoking today too but just like everyother time I try to quit some bullshit is popping up and it drives at my fucking skin. anyways this might be a long story but like i said I havent been on here for a while and actualy I thought I was seeing a […]
We are gathered here today, brought together by sadness and a young girlâ€™s demise
A conclusion reached because of the boy with the lies
Her told her things each day, no one should have to hear
So often in fact, she lived in constant fear
She no longer looked forward, always looking back
Building up her defenses for the boy’s next attack
Day in and day out she heard the boy with the lies
Make fun of everything- from her feet to her eyes
Even the way that she walked was absurd
She remembered every mean thing she heard
Even when she was alone, […]
People always talk about how they have to â€˜put on a fake smileâ€™ and fool everyone, but itâ€™s so hard to do that. I canâ€™t. How can you smile when the crushing weight of depression is burying you? Most of the time Iâ€™m lost in my thoughts; theyâ€™re drowning me. Iâ€™m in my own little world of self-hate and despair. I look out the window and I can see the beauty, but I canâ€™t feel it. The snow is flurrying right now, little trinkets of white raining down on the blanket of glistening snow that already fell. The trees are dead and bare, stripped of […]
All of these fools around me,
who think the world is just dandy,
don’t know the hell,
people like us go through.
We are the ones,
who are constantly judged,
by the ones who think themselves perfect,
but are really just the same as us.
The only difference between us and them,
is that we are brave enough to show it,
while they sit their and throw a fit.
Quote: Who is the bigger fool? The child afraid of the dark, or the man afraid of the light?
I’m 13 years old, turning 14 in March 13. I’m here again. Alone. I’ve been sexually abused by two family members and physically abused by almost every single person in my family. I’ve been beaten with objects. I can still taste the blood inside my mouth when it got busted and bruised. I’m insecure. I have cuts all over my legs and arms. And I have P.E too, we’re forced to wear shorts, I have to run everyday in the lockers and change as fast as possible making sure no one is able to see. I keep my razor inside my phone case, just in […]
I’m chilean sorry if you don’t understand something)
It’s weird because in the morning I was very happy and I go out with a friend and blah blah but now like 30 minutes ago BOOM! I fell in “depresion” I mean I feel like a pity, like a fool again.. I don’t want cutting just I fell like I never do something right and I’ve been liying to everybody of who I am I want to be really happy… Not just for a while
And I have ,during a month, the feeling that the relation with my parents it’s made of plastic.. If […]
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