i’m so lost right now, i feel like i’m all alone in the world. like i’m here but i’m invisible. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like giving up, not trying anymore. I’m just about done.
I found out today the reason my boyfriend doesn’t have feeling for me anymore, its not because i was forced to move so now we don’t see eachother, its because of another girl, my ex best friend too. it breaks me down, i feel like its my fault, like i wasn’t good enough, even though i put in all i have, i told him everyday how i felt about him, i never gave up and even now that i know the truth i can’t let go. I don’t want this to end. we were together for a year and 3 months then together but not official for 9 months after that..i really don’t know what i did wrong..
I have to put on a show for everyone, my family and my friends..I shouldn’t have to be i do..I feel like i’m one big fake..i do nothing but sit at home and do school..I really feel like i’m fading out of everyones life around me..i don’t know what to do </3
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ohh sister im sorry to hear your bad bumps in the road; however well maybe he wants to move on this is in regards to your bf maybe he was seeing someone or this other person while he was with you i mean its a pretty quick move on if u think about it. either way you got school and this should give you something to look forward to right?? your only getting smarter and everyone else stupider…i mean the relationship is done if u think about it so whats more then to move on and who knows possibly find someone else i mean life is about being happy and being with who you choose and everything is done by will so make sure to satisfy yourself without hurting others of course or infringing on their will cause that’s a no no. either way whats lost is lost its just a relationship that had a season and now it is no more so what? their not you u got a life ahead of you and make sure to fulfill that to the fullest cause u only live once so even if its crazy,wild, nasty, dangerous, frightful, risky do it just beware and aware of its consequence then ull make your own decision based on your conclusion were all different so everything else that u hear people saying that other say their opinions, suggestions, and/or ideas so take it as such not much just that.
no guy is worth it i gave my self to my first boyfriend everything was going good until i told him i was pregnant he told me to have an abortion or he was going to leave me my friends told me the same if i kept the baby to forget about them because i was not going to be able to party or have fun i told every one to go fuck them selves 8 years later i have my son and were is everyone else gone my first boyfriend had more kids and left the girls when he found out they were pregnant and my friends gone just think about you your future there is a guy out there that is going to love you unconditionaly and a friend that is going to be there for you when you need them the most
its not just him..he is a big part of it but since i moved (which i had to choice) i’ve lost so many people and it hurts..where i live now i have one friend, thats it..i don’t even have my parents anymore..even my mom doesn’t see how unhappy i am here..
oh wow Joann i feel like that too. i moved here like a year ago. and i just am not happy at all. but my mom seems to be so i just lie and say im doing just fine. i too dont have any friends. just like 2 or 3. even those people dont really even talk to me or anything 🙁
where do you live now? I moved to minnesota after living in illinois for 13 years, just ripped away from what i know best..i really hate it
i used to live around there 🙂 when i was really young though…. now i live in Oregon.
how do you deal with everything?
i honestly dont know for sure. most days i dont really. most the time i am in my dorm room, and listing to music. or i am doing stuff for ROTC or i am running
it will get better i left new mexico to go to texas at first i hated it but you get used to it and sooner or later you’ll make friends you’ll see
ive been here over a year and its the same as when i first got here.
its been almost a year for me
it sucks :/
agreed