not good enough.

my father and girlfriend today have been harping me to get my ged. i just lost my job and am having a time looking for a new one but no matter where i apply or what i do it is just never good enough. but this is also to anything i do too i feel the same way sometimes like i only have one game for my xbox and its getting boring so now my xbox is inferior. and my tv is only hd and my roomate has a 3d hd tv and mine is bigger but his looks better with a higher refresh rate so once again what i have is inferior. i guess what im getting at is i  want to kill myself bcuz im tired of thinking like this im tired of no matter what i do it will never be good enough. like if i got my ged it wouldnt be enough i would also have to go to college and find out what i wanna do for myt life but its exactly that i dont wanna live for the rest of my life i wanna die so i dont have to feel the pain of disaapointment when everything i say and do isnt good enough i just want to not exist not that i want to go to heaven or hell or that i believe either of these exist just that im so tired of not being good enough