I came home from work today, knowing my mom wasn’t happy. I figured she got in a fight with my dad or something, it was oh so much worse then that. I arrive home and they sit me down. Straight up tell me they’re getting a divorce, and my mom is leaving tonight. Why? She’s been having an affair with one of their friends and got caught by HIS wife. I kept asking if it was a joke, nope it wasn’t a joke. I broke down and left to a friends house for a few hours. When I return home, my mom was gone and my dad was sitting on the couch with my aunt and uncle. Drunk out of his mind, smoking which he hasn’t done in months. He won’t stop yelling around my house about how horrible my mom is. A normal teenage would ignore it, unfortunately I can’t. My house is a senior care home, which means there is 5 old people living in it. My dad will be hung over in the morning, it’s 12:30 am right now and he’s still stumbling around drunk. I’m 17 years old, this is my graduation year and I vowed to myself I would get awesome grades so I could move in with my sister and start university. I can’t go to school tomorrow, it’s the first of the month. I have to now get up at 6, get the seniors breakfast ready, which includes their pills which they rely on (I have no idea how to give out pills without killing someone?) And be back to do lunch, and help my dad with dinner. I have to do my dads banking which is just lovely, I didn’t know being a 17 year old living here I would be signed up for such a hard task. I don’t know what to do, i’m upset, hurt, pissed off, wanting to just end it but I know I can’t for this businesses sake. My dad won’t stop talking about wanting to kill himself so I’m now paranoid I’m going to wake up to that. I don’t want to do this. It doesn’t feel like it’s real, this can’t be happening, why me?
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You can’t control other people, especially your parents. I knew my parents would divorce when I was your age, and they did. You have to make your own life the way you want it to be. You can be there for them, but they have to do what they need to do and you just have to be you and do what you think is right.
The best possible thing you can do is that which youve already thought of doing and that is to do the best you can at school and make yourself the person you want to be. You have great potential by the way you expressed yourself I can clearly see that. Remember always you have no control over the life of another but you can control yours and by doing so impact the lives of others its up to you to choose a positive impact or negative. You have a strong heart. It is going to be hard and its going to be a challenge but Sucess is living a few years of your life like most people wont. So that you can spend the rest of your life like most people cant.