Please.. I beg you to stop blaming me for this.. You don’t realize it hurts so bad when you do.. What makes you think I would want myself to suffer like this? I’m starting to dislike you.. And I was just starting to like you again. Soon enough I’ll be gone.. Away from you. Far enough to not be remembered. But I won’t be sad about it, and neither should any of you. I’m already invisible to many. Today’s my birthday. 17.. I made it. Yes. My grandmas remembered.. Both of them and my mother.. No phone calls. Nothing. Maybe my thoughts will get the best of me.. Or I’ll be strong enough to make it.
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whoever is blaming you for your depression obviously doesnt understand how depression works, they might be ignorant of it, but it doesnt mean that they dont care about you, they just dont know how to cope with your depression, try to explain that you cant control how you feel, try to explain everything to this person, and if they still dont understand then its their fault not yours, and you are better off without them.
Im glad you made it to your 17th birthday, i know i never thought i would either, and now im looking forward to my 18th birthday even though i dont like birthdays aha,
stay strong, and try to vent everything you can
This is the funny thing.. I have. I told them (my family) it’s not me. I can’t help being like this. And she’s like you cant go to your room all the time. So I don’t as much but being depressed you don’t want to do things and then today she’s like your on sleep medication because you go to your room and sleep. No I don’t. I go to my room and lay down and listen to music. You can’t do that. THEN WHAT CAN I DO?!?! It pisses me off.
I know what that is like.
I watch my congratulations getting thinner every year.
Happy birthday! I hope your 18th birthday will be far better.
im sorry she bugs you so much, i remember when i was depressed people tried to get me to do things to, i ignored all of them and i just would lay in my bed and fall asleep. the thing that people dont understand is that we really dont feel like doing anything when we are depressed, and that if we are forced to do something (like go out) we feel like we dont belong, it doesnt make things better it just makes things worse, watching everyone else happy when you are stuck in your head feeling like hell,
im sorry you have to deal with hearing her tell you to do shit, just try to ignore her the best you can.
I’m hoping I make it to my 18th birthday ahaha. Trying to hold on. And thanks rathernot, I’ll take your advice.