This is a sort of rant ramble of things, and also a call of advice.
I’ve never been too good with words. I always manage to say the wrong thing when I’m speaking face to face with someone, and I also get very emotional too even over things that don’t need to be. So in general hard to discuss topics for me are even harder, and I’m sure I’m not the only one on this board.
So now onto the general main topic.
I’m moving to California, I’m just leaving everything behind and moving, there’s no doubt in my mind about it. I have to go for myself. I’m 18 and just graduated this past June, I was enrolled in a college and plans fell out, and the military isn’t for me. All I’ve ever really cared about was music, and I know Cali is a stereotypical place to go, but this is for me, it’s something I need to do.
“I’m going out to find myself, If I should get here before I return, please hold me until I get back.”
That quote pretty much sums up my reasons for the trip. I don’t know who I am anymore, and I don’t exactly have anything to lose, so I’m going out to find myself and find out who I really am.
My problem is that I don’t know how to explain this to my parents and let them know that I’ll be alright. See, I’ll be walking… I don’t have a car or a license. Just my two feet a bag of necessities and my guitar, and whatever money I can scrape up.
So you see it won’t be easy for them to accept this, and it’s going to be extremely difficult to explain, and to let them know that it’s nothing they did. My parents love me, I’m the youngest child of 5 so I’m the one they kind of try to shelter and keep under their wing. But I’m also the only one who doesn’t appear to have his shit together.
So please anyone, let me know how to let them know that they didn’t do anything wrong and that I’m doing this for me because it’s something I need to do.
Sincerely,
1 comment
well done for finding the courage to get out there and do what you gotta do for you. so many of us trap ourself for the benefit of others. as a parent i got to tell you no matter what you say its going to be hard they will worry and try try to make you”see sense” its their life path to care for you. if you have the strength to make your own path you can find the strength to say goodbye to them let them know that it will be so much easier on you if you have their blessing and support. work out a way to stay in regular contact for both your sakes. good luck may your weary feet find rest,may your hunger be sated,may your cold bones find shelter and may your heart find peace as you share your music.