I’ve had depression for almost a year now and my life is just falling apart. Over the summer I’ve tried to kill myself 5 times, but can’t even do that right. I have nobody to talk to about how I’m feeling because nobody understands. They’ll just label me and think I’m a freak… People think I have a perfect life because I’m popular at school and always seem happy, but they don’t know that every night I consider killing myself. I’ve been on another depression forum and people keep saying things will get better and to just hold on, BUT IT HASN’T GOTTEN ANY BETTER!!! And the problem is that it never will get better. I’m going to have to live with this for the rest of my life. People say that in a couple of years whats bothering me now won’t matter then, but why would I want to suffer through all of this pain for years when I could just kill myself right now and be done with everything? I don’t deserve to live and I don’t want to anyways. I can’t picture anybody caring if I killed myself so why not? I just hate living with all this guilt, I think I’m going to end it soon.
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I have been depressed since I was 12, I’m 15 now. Only for the past 10 months have I been suicidal. I have tried to kill myself but failed because I kept thinking about what could be in 10 years when I’m away from all the people making me depressed. I understand and yeah your a freak but hey so am I. Thats better than being boring right? I’m not gonna try to talk you out of it cause no matter what I say it will not change your mind but just think. 10 years from now. happy yeah maybe alone but happy. happiness is all we ever ask for
A: Thank you for commenting on my post! It’s nice to know there is someone out there like me. And I get what you mean when you say in 10 years I might be happy again. But that means I’ll go through all those years of pain when I could just end it right now. I know what you mean though. I just don’t think that I will even make it to next year.. I hope you find happiness in your life though! Take care!