Ive never posted on a blog before but here it goes, im 17 going on 18 in january, ive never had  a boyfriend or had someone love me, ive never been kissed and its getting to the point deep down i never will, ive been suicidal for the past 3-4 months recently but the past year all together. Ive got high anxiety as well as being heavly depressed.Every day for me is a struggle to find a reason to keep waking up in the morning, ive attempted twice. Im a tom boy i love video games, sports, cars, im into pretty much every type of music out there but ive never been able to connect with somone, i guess i was never ment to fall inlove, or perhaps im just ment to commit suicide, who knows but if things dont get better soon i wont be around for much longer
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Guys arn’t every thing ! I’d be alot happier, probably would be fine now if I had never had a boyfriend !
They can be right arse holes !
Be an independant woman ! I’m sure that when the time comes, there will be the right guy for you !
speaking as a guy……
ya – guys can be useless (note the word choice)…. And ya – guys can be slime too.
BUT to the original poster – tom boys are VERY sexy at some point. Hang in there – they will be noticing you real soon.
you sound awesome, i would love you… i was the same way till i was 23, and im a guy… but its not true… sometimes its better to have never loved at all, then to have loved and lost…. but dont give up, there are plenty of guys like me who are desperate to be in love as well 🙂
see – guys DO like that.
and ya – (IMO) love is the ultimate “no in between”. It either is great or sucks to no end……
You know, 17 (or 18 — or 19, or 20, for that matter) really isn’t that old, and though it might seem like you’ll never find someone, it’s too early to tell just yet!
If you are really desperate, then I have a suggestion. Is there a Bible-believing church near you? (I say ‘Bible-believing’, as that sort of church is much more likely to have a good bunch of teenagers, rather than just a few pensioners.) Chances are, there will be people your own age there, both male and female, who have never been kissed, either. You’ll no longer feel as though you’re the only girl your age without a boyfriend. …And hey, who knows? You may find a nice young guy there…
Just a suggestion, anyway. Good luck!
i think ignotum has a SOLID idea. at least worth a shot – right.?.?.?.
my only ex was 19 when i met her, she was a vigin and never been kissed like me… and she was like 260 lbs, but i loved her… and now she had bypass surgery and lost like 100 lbs, and apparently is too good for me and left me… so you see, things get better, or i mean they could get better for you… just be yourself, someone will surely love you for that, and someone will love you for wanting to be loved… you just need to wait and find the right person…
Hey Tokey, that’s a really sad story. You’d think she’d have stuck with you because you loved her for the person she was, rather than for her figure. I’ve lost count of the times I’ve heard large women complaining that they only want to be loved for who they are, and that men can’t see past their weight. People sure are strange…
yeah… it sucks and it hurt…. and i still cant find a way to get through it…. but i didnt mean to rant, i just wanted to assure lonely young girls that there is always hope, at least your not a guy… there is less hope for us…
as a guy who was in the roughly the same spot as u when i was 17 (somehow hit 19 -_-) it took me untill less than a month ago to get my first girlfriend (actually met her on an online dating sight of all places) untill her i never thought id find anyone, but there is someone out there for u. id stopped using the sight, given up on finding anyone by the time she got in touch… as much as i hate saying this, there is always hope. ps ive always loved tom boys myself 😀