Thinking

Dear Friend in suffering,
I came up with the exacct sameplan as you did about the storage unit and car. And there ARE too many ways that that won’t work. Slitting your wrists, if you do it right, will take MANY hours of VERY painfull suffering and odds are you will have time to change your mind and most likely won’t be able to tolerate the pain.

Please read my post of yesterday called…I survived, and you may end up worse than you are now. Can you image feeling worse than you do NOW? It IS possible. Trust me. I have attempted suicide several times and had to endure horrible consequences from surviving. My DR said to “I don’t know why, but you are meant to live, because you should’ve died last time.”

When my last friend and family finally told me to “kill yourself and getit over with” because I ‘ve felt this way so many times. I decided I would. But out of the blue…literally, someone called me I hadn’t heard from in 20 yrs and talked me into living for my dog, if nothing else. I have unbearable physical pain 24/7 for over 20 yrs.

I WANT to live and I WANT to die. Choosing to live one more day, you have time to see if life gives you a break. Choosing to die today…your options are done. The What if’s are gone, any chance that you had (and will) have will be erased.

Just find someone who is feeling the EXACT same thing you are. Whatever your circumstances, there IS someone in this world experiencing the exact same thing for the same reason. Get on the internet and make it your mission to find that person and talk.

I woke up in excruiating pain, again, but I’ve decided to live today. And avoid any toxic people who can hurt me with their words.

Good luck, my friend.