A Song With No Solace

Long term chronic pain is difficult to live with. I’m 21 and I have been in and out of hospitals (medical and psychiatric) for three years. All three I was in university and should have been able to experience the best side of that life. Instead I was stuck inside. Now my doctors tell me I will have to live with it for the rest of my life. I have to see psychiatrists because I have already had two failed attempts. They say I use sleep as a coping mechanism but it is a lot sweeter in the unconscious than it is to wake up in pain all day every day. Wouldnt it be wonderful if it was as easy as closing your eyes and slipping into the endless dark? But reality isn’t that nice, is it? I may be here tomorrow, maybe the next day, but there are dark days ahead.