ive decided its time. 3 more days just 3 more days till 2012 is over and 3 more days till i die. i have decided it is time and im going to die. i promised myself that next year i will commit suicide. no one wants to help me, no one understands my pain, physical and emotional. im better off dead. im just a worthless good for nothing person. dead but alive. inside dead and outside alive. i just have to survive 3 more days. i cannot carry on like this anymore and im taking action and leaving. what do you think ?
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well first consider the people who care about you first. if you don’t have a mother, father or siblings…you are a lucky one. otherwise, find the strength.
they will get over my death. im leaving them a letter explaing it to them its not them and ill tell them good things and not bad things therev done to me. i cant find the strength for this. this pain is to hard, its horrible. its excruiating. not worth it.
BTD–I don’t have a specific date, but everything else is certain. I hear where you’re coming from–the pain is essentially intolerable. I wish you the best in every way, with whatever solution(s) you decide upon. I hope, first, that you can find something to live for. If not, I hope you die in a painless, quick fashion. I do understand the pain.
please dont do this i know i dont know you, but i get what your going through if u ever need anyone to talk to you can talk to me 978 376 2440
I don’t think you should do it. I think you should find someone to help. Your family will never be able to get over your death no matter how many nice things you write to them — a lifetimes worth would not even be enough because no matter what you say they will always have to live with the guilt and pain that they will feel knowing that they couldn’t help you. Maybe if they were reading what you feel as we are reading it, at least that would be fair, they could and would try to make you feel better. Sometimes life gets people down – sometimes it does for a very long time — years if you let it… Not to say that you need to be stronger than anyone else but maybe consider that people that disappoint you are not in the best place in their life … So is it worth it to make them suffer more? Is it fair that others should have to suffer the pain that your death will cause them for the rest of Their life? The truth is you ARE loved. Those people will work with you because they love you. Just give them a chance…
thankyou for undertanding. i hope you enjoy the rest of your life. my death will be painful unfortunatly.
CTB, can you emasil me at suicide.project@yahoo.com please?
and daisy88 i have given up in help. my family will understand. its not worth it anymore.
They won’t, no one understands death. Have you at least read the Tibetan book of the dead?
they will understand becuz of the pain im going through. they wont at first but wen the shock wears off they will see the sence in it.
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sorry.
I’ve been there, I’ve made the same justifications before in my head “they will get over it” “they will forget”. You are wrong! They will never forgive you for leaving them behind. No matter what you are going through, you aren’t just giving up on your life, you are giving up on them and that hurts in ways that cannot be repaired. You will not feel this way forever, things will change for you, and they know that, I know that. Just hang in there x
Pointless6 – you wrote ‘they will never forgive you for leaving them behind’. So BTD should feel guilty that others didn’t take their lives or die and leave him/her behind first? Not all families are the Brady Bunch. I’m planning my suicide as well, and every person in my ‘family’ knows it. Their response ‘do what you have to do’. If BTD believes that his family will understand based upon his/her life situations, that should be respected.
Best of luck in your decision BTD. I will support you either way you decide.