they took a picture of me during lunch hour the other day. and by they i mean my ‘friends’. actually, i’m not even friends with the boy who took the picture. he just hangs out with my ‘friends’. anyway, he took a picture and showed the girl next to him. they started laughing. i figured it was a picture from facebook or something. then one of the girls asked ‘what?’. the girl who first saw the picture said ‘trust me. you don’t want to see it’. the boy sent the picture to that girl and then showed the other people around him. they were all laughing. when i looked to the girl who was next to me i saw the picture. i didn’t really see it. i saw my jacket and shirt. they were all laughing at me. i walked away with my head spinning and my breath catching in my throat.
they have no idea how bad i felt about it. they thought it was funny. i didn’t. i resisted the urge i had since friday. but now, just an hour ago, i took my stupid little razor and started slicing over the old cuts. now, the skin over my right ribs is red and covered with cuts. i don;t want to go to school. it’s stupid, they took a picture. but they all laughed. and now i’m afraid to go back there. to the school. because they laughed at me. i feel so stupid about this but i’m way too self concious. there’s now so many cuts now that i lost count.
the last time i cut, in the same spot which was over scars, i made 40 cuts, not deep, i just want pain, and now, tonight, there’s so many i can’t even count.
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What was the picture of? Did the asshole photoshop you? Can you beat his ass? (just saying there are people who deserve it)
i didn’t really get a good look at the picture. once i saw it was of me i just had to get out of there. and the guy who took it is a rugby player. i’m more mad at my friends. for laughing.
death4kisses,
what’s done is done,try to stay away from them if they are jerks. it will die down.