I just feel like crap for no reason. Work is draining. I met a guy who I like and then found out he has as many problems as I do. I told him about how I’m suicidal and I cut sometimes, and he didn’t run away…. but he told me all about his problems too. We are two lonely and depressed people with issues. Now sure how that works out? Maybe it does? Maybe it doesn’t? I can’t handle my own crap, let alone thinking about someone else’s. Now I am not sure what I want to do.
I am starting to meet some people where I live… 5 months later after moving… but I am still pretty depressed and lonely. I think about killing myself. I don’t want to kill myself, but for someone who thinks about it that much, you’d think I do want to end my life. I haven’t been on here in awhile, but I am just so overwhelmed emotionally, and I don’t even know what it is that I amÂ overwhelmedÂ by. I just am. I have a job…. I can pay rent… I can afford to buy food. Not so bad on the surface. So why do I feel like shit?
Some days I am screaming inside for a little attention, but then I feel selfish for wanting anyone to care. I really like don’t know what is going on inside my head. I just know I don’t like it. And it is a little lonely in there.