Actually SAYING whats wrong, or that youre upset, or cutting or whatever.. just makes it THAT much more real… so i think thats why depressed people keep it to themselves. As soon as we say that somethings wrong, it all becomes real.. completly and truely real.. and thats the worst thing…
Deny it… maybe it will eventually work if we just deny it all..
Denial… maybe it will work someday.. hopefully…
so i will continue to deny it, and fake my happiness…
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someone once told me: it’s like an deep wound that will not heal from just sewing up the skin.. (have to fix the inner parts first..)
I can go about my day, everything seemingly okay, but there is this strong feeling that something is wrong. That, and the fact that I can feel that I’m different from the people around me. The connection with others has been severed or something.. Then the denying has failed, and I remember why I’m the way I am again..
I do wish denying will work someday..
People always tell me that I need to talk about it to fix it… But when I do try and talk about what’s wrong or whatever… Things only get worse. So denial seems to work the best..