Sometime I Wonder If Anyone Would Understand Me!!!!

Im 12 years old and i know you are wondering what a twelve year old can POSSIBLY  have gone through that she wants to commit suicide well ive been bullied ive made a big mistake once and i did that mistake again i dont know why but i did it and i never let my thought out i always keep them locked in cause im scared..scared of what people will think..scared if i will get hurt..scared i might end up killing my self if i did say something but then again if i dont i will probably kill my self no one understands me NO ONE not one person i want someone i can talk to that wont judge me and say i know how u feel i want people who understand the pain who havent gone through what i have gone through but will say i understand your pain but if someone who did what i did and told me i would connect with that person cause that person went through that moment and hated it and had the feelings and thoughts i did….is there a person like that on earth….i think so and i hope there is cause i would probably have second thoughts of commiting suicide i need help MAJOR HELP if u can help me contact me to ahkeylax3@aol.com