Its said that real integrity is doing the right thing, knowing that nobody’s going to know whether you did it or not.
Every one has a breaking point … I feel I have reached to a upper limit of my exhausted strength …. For past 3-4 years I have tried to fight what I felt was wrong and I fought with all honestly and in fair ways .. I made mistakes but then I am no super human . But I know that my intentions were good and pure … and I did made lot of sacrifices….May be its just that my ambitions exceeded my talent ..
I am not ashamed of my tears but yes I am afraid of failure…… Nietzsche once wrote – One should die proudly when it is no longer possible to live proudly. I m not sure i hv enough curage for it … if I succeed then its good , if I fail I will just lower my standards of morality and live the way society wants us to live with a terrible burden of guilt and regrets …. but what ever it is .. its time to take the final decision … I can’t continue anymore in the current state…
This site and ******’s chat room are good .. and people there might be last good thing tht i came across… but I hope I never return here again…
I guess it was worth it.
peace n equanimity
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Suicide is not a honorable death; don’t go that route.
You should be proud that you’ve been fighting so much for something you believe in. Don’t give up now, people need you. Because you ARE a superman to them. Continue helping people and ask for help yourself if you’re feeling overwhelmed. We can help you and you can, in turn, help us. Don’t take yourself away from us. We need you! 🙂
I no how you are feeling. I passed my breaking point to.. I have Come to a resolution in my mind. All what is left for me is to is to decide do i make it look like a accident or leave a note.
Berry, suicide is not the only option.
We shall never surrender! Never! The forces of sobriety are strong but as your general I will lead all SP forklifts to victory
Why did I say forklifts. Don’t know why I did that. Drunk. But on a separate not don’t operate a forklift truck whilst under the influence. Could be dangerous
Holy shit, Duke! 😀 you’re dangerous! I’m dying of laughter!
am glad I had one good habit of being a patient reader …. going thru a book titled ‘departing drugs’ which clearly explains y I failed previously …. writing more wuld b against the sp guidelines… thanks ..bye.
Abhi, do you want help? Because we’re offering. 🙂
Thanks .. I know the drill .. don’t worry …
I’m willing to give you advice. What do you need to know? I’ll be glad to help. 🙂