What the hell am I goiing to do next time I have eye surgery? What am I going to do when I’m badgered by my grandparents just because they care very little about anyone but themselves? I hate them to the point of murder. I nearly got locked away the other week because of that shit. Maybe I should go hang in their place just to fucking scare them, but unfortunately I won’t be coming back to witness their destruction from grieving over me.
But then I remember the fact that I have people who actually care about me. I guess I can get them to stop my fat ugly grans from treating me like shit. Seriously they treat me like a fucking baby, something they can’t leave alone, I bet if I was in a car accident and they came to the hospital, they’d be trying to get me up and walking straight away, or talking to them as though I’m normal, nothing at all wrong. If I don’t stop thinking about them, I’ll go crazy. I nearly spewed up all over my grandmother a couple of weeks ago because she got me infuriated to such a murderous rage. I’m now an angry, bitter person. Believe me when I’m anesthetised in a couple of weeks, I’m gonna wake up and be the most horrible person one has ever met. I’ll be nasty, bitter, mean, sullen etc. Noboedy will want to know me. I hate anesthesia, I hate the world. I hate most people except for a few.
3 comments
MichelleJ,
sorry your feeling like shit 🙁 “murderous rage” hum? i hope your over Exaggerating! or i wouldn’t want to be in the same room with you! calm down people do not know how to treat people with problems if there not trained they do what they think is good but it could be irritating. so………….. relax and deal with it. i wish i had some real magic answer but i’m a untrained crazy person like you! 🙂 good luck!
Well, you have got much more than most of us. You spoke of people caring about you. That is quite a lot.
Thanks for the comments both of you. I’ll see how I go. It’s always the trained people who know how to help me when I explain my situation to them. And yes there are people who car eabout me. They help me calm down and have more respect for me, by way of also letting the trained people help me when they can’t. As for the other people I mentioned, I’ll try not to let them get to me. If they can’t let the professionals help me because they’re too disrespectful to accept that their ways of dealing with discomfort isn’t going to work for everyone, clearly this shows disrespect for the professionals too. So I’ll just leave it at that and see how things go.