People say that people cut for attention.
Many cutters fight back saying things like “If it’s for attention, why are we hiding? Why are we lying?”
But I think that it’s completely different.
I don’t want anyone to know that I cut. I don’t want people to try to help me.Â
But sometimes I fantasize about someone seeing a glimpse of my wrist. I imagine that they grab my arm and stare, shocked. I want them to ask me why. And I want to tell them.
I don’t want people to know.
But all I want is to scream at the top of my lungs about how much it hurts.
Maybe it is for attention.
Maybe it isn’t.
Maybe it doesn’t matter.
10 comments
No, you dont want people to see..You want people to try to understand how you feel and how much pain your hiding. Sometimes you want people to notice that youre even hiding pain. Youre not an attention-seeker. You cant keep whatever youre feeling locked away forever.
Thanks…that makes sense.
You are normal in my eyes. Dont ever think yourself as an attention seeker. People arent made to hold things inside. They need an out, or to vent. At least people havent actually done that to you. Ive had people take my arm, stare and point. Trust me, it’s not the reaction you’d like. People are disgusted..and you lose people you think are your friends
There are 4 people in my life that I’ve told about my cutting.
There are 6 that know about it that I know of.
My mom was scared, and my dad is of the opinion that I’m a coward.
I just wonder how many people my parents have told.
I wonder how many people have looked at me and looked for the cuts. I wonder how many people have seen them, but not had the guts to say anything.
I guess I just want someone to tell me they love me anyway, scars and all.
I’m always asking myself if anybody I know would still be my friend if they knew.
I guess I’m just hoping that people will see them just so I get to see who my real friends are… If I even have any.
That makes perfect sense…
I’m glad it makes sense….
I kept thinking I was crazy for thinking things like that…
What? No. Crazy for wanting to make sure youre loved? Definitely not. You’d be crazy if you didnt care.
Thanks a lot, that helps so much.
It’s great to know that someone out there understands the way I feel, and isn’t judging me or thinking I belong in some hospital.
No problem, really.
I do understand and youre not insane.
I hope things go smoothly for you and that you find what youre looking for
If not, you can always email me.
RainAlicia@ymail.com
Thanks 🙂
Likewise, My email is ApatheticAgony@live.com