hsv 1 and2

Aite Ive had this random sex encounter with 3 guys by the end of december , but got hsv 2..im gay and that pretty much ruins my sex life.. and they were all healthy, it was me i was shedding and didnt even know i had hsv on my lips! on the last guy.. i really liked.. & started texting him mid january. from that day we kinda started texting everyday. now its like less cause he’s on a trip and is coming back in like 2 weeks. since i thought he would be in town by mid jan i kinda started talking to him because we both felt this really good chemistry the first time we met. so were like planning on going out when he gets back. after that ive had like sex twice…and now im not since im waiting for this guy. i know he isnt having sex cause hes basically in the middle of nowhere. But im here in the city soo its hard. i kinda regret the sex i had after but its not like it was anything serious…so im not anymore. and i know he didnt get the virus beacuase i just know.. but i dont know what to doo. i told him ill wait for him. he told me if i could wait for him.. but said i was free to do whatever i want if  i want. to like ”swim around”… so basically that means having sex if i wanted to, but not get involved in something serious with anyone. ERRR…i am waiting for him. and im planning on not having any sex. but what if we meet up and then it wears off. im scared of that. i dont know. im also kinda waiting to get my HIV test so i can see if im healthy. i did one this year already-negative. but after having sex with this random guy i kinda wanna do it again cause of this guy. but im still like ehh.. idk im losttt LOL  i dont know whats wrong or right anymore (? and i still talk to these guys online and like arranged for a date already but im still waiting for this guy to come back. i have hope……………. but im scared. long distance stuff is HARDD heheh right ? oh and having this fucwe;fjewtgfdsagtrefds virus too which makes me feel worthless and depressed and like shit =)