ive been trying to avoid my x for weeks.. cause i want to forget.. that i eever cared..
tonight i was talking his friend..
and
he was there.. so all my avoiding him has gone to waste.. now ive been on skype with him for about 4 hours and i know you’ll all say this is my fault.. and well i know it is.. I let him get ot me again. I wanna die. I hate this. I was planning my death tonight to. I gave my faimaly a chance to have fun with me for new years, and i gave them one last christmas with me.
I told all my friends at school i probaly wont be seeing that after the break..
I hate this.. how he can get so under my skin. he knows just what to say to make me blush. We were playing 20 questions. I asked him one think he wanted to do before he died.. and he said fuck you 🙂 then he like okay nevermind
I CANT TELL IF HE LIKES ME OR NOT!!
I HATE THIS
I HATE HIM..
but i love him..
so much
i dont think he knows that
I shall scars on his arm during the video chat
i asked what it was he said well it doesnt matter you have more cuts then i do..
i froze..
i hate this
when ever he feels akward he brings up my cuts..
he knows i hate to talk bout this..
I’m thinking about sliting my neck with a scapel. Cutting back behind my neck hitting my pain arteries.
It would take atleast 30 seconds to bleed out or cut the artiery.
I hate
this
i hate him
i hate life.
Fuck it all
im so sick of everything i wish last year i had succeded..
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I’m new at this but have you tried deleting your accounts or making new ones so that you wont have to deal with him or moving schools?
the way youre describing makes him like a bad person, like hes harassing you in a way.
but dont believe what he has to say unless theres proff hes telling the truth.
dont show him youre weak,show him youre better thsn him & dont guve up yet. if you were doing fine without him then you dont need him.
i wish i could switch schools.. its just not that easy .. i’ve ignored him, but he’ll just find more ways to talk to me.. like the other night.. i didnt know he was on the other line.. and if i hung up right there he’d know i was ignoring him.. so now its like.. :/ fuck