So for once today, i actually felt good. no suicidal thoughts, no depression, no irritability (then again i seem to have a really fast version of bipolar when it comes to moods) but then my dad decided, that like every other day, he had to annoy me. I know this isnt suicidal but it makes me very angry and even depressed on occasion, i just dont know how to handle it on top of my already difficult life at the moment. Here they are:
1. Deliberately embarrassing me infront of our extended family.
2. Saying my report is ‘crap’ even though i got 4 A’s out of my 8 subjects, just because i didnt get an a in math and science, and completely ignoring the fact that i got 91% in my english exam. (THANKS?)
3. Accusing me of watching porn on my laptop just because i accidentaly locked my door.
4. Constantly trying to get me to change my career into something ‘worthwhile’.
5. Saying that all the house work i do (all of it as we have a farm so i do all the house work) is not a contribution.
6. Making stupid arguments with me on subjects he has no idea about (i really mean it)
7. Constantly trying to change my opinion on things.
9. treats me like im useless and dumb.
Look, i know this isnt that bad, but i feel angry considering what im already going through and then this to top it off. I just feel so opressed in my household. nobody cares about my opinions, no one believes in my abilities and everyone treats me like im dumb. i know i have skills, but i dont ever feel confident in them because anything i ever want to do towards them, like entering a writing competition (which ive wanted to do for 2 and a half years) but i feel they wont believe in me and laugh at me. Seriously! What do i do?
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Your father sounds like he is trying to push you to be better while also being conflicted in realizing you are growing into an adult. Maybe try explaining it to him calmly how you feel. Show him emotional maturity. Yelling rarely works with parents. If that doesn’t seem feasible or doesn’t work out well, try to take comfort in the fact that what may seem like you are being treated like you are dumb, it may actually be your father’s way of protecting you by keeping you safe in his mind. Parents are people too and sometimes, like all of us, make mistakes.