Well…..yeah since the new year began I said to myself “No more cutting”. And I had stuck to that rule until today. One of my closest friend has been trying to cheer me up for about 3 days straight, and yesterday it worked. But today she was in a depressed mood, and I was trying to cheer her up, and I confessed my love to her, and she just turned her back on me and acted like she didn’t care, no matter how hard I tried to cheer her up, and it hurt me so bad.
So out came the knife and ….. yeah, I just don’t know what to do. We have made up, and she’s better now, but I still cant stop cutting. I don’t know what the heck I did wrong, but that’s my new years resolution ripped apart. I just don’t know what to do anymore….
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hi, I’m ravanys. I know how you feel, I’ve tried to stop cutting and carving myself plenty of times but everytime I eventually end up doing it again. :/ Trying to cheer up a friend who is possibly depressed is not an easy task. Getting rejected by one of your closest friends is even worse xs If I might suggest something, try to just sit or lay down and focus on breathing. It sounds really stupid but it helps. Don’t have your cellphone with you and definitly not your knife, breathe in and breathe out.
I cant live without my phone, but I threw the knife somewhere random in myroom, and don’t know where it landed. I’ve tried what you said, it helped, but still feellike crap :/
haha, me neither 😉 I just know that if you have a friend with who you fell in love it’s sometimes difficult to seperate yourself from the machine linking you to her :/
Breathing helps, but it sadly won’t take away the crappy feelings 🙁 I’m here if you want to talk about it, I seem to find that talking about this stuff does help to some degree 🙂
Well I cant stop thining of her so….:/
Yeah thanks someone to talk to would help 🙂
I know what you feel :/ I’ve told my best friend I love her like 8 months ago and I still can’t stop thinking of her. Depsite really trying and her getting a boyfriend and shit 🙁 I’m just saying you are not alone 🙂
if you want to email me : ruben.mertens666@gmail.com If you don’t, just keep posting I’ll be on here for a couple of hours still ^^