I tried ending my life on Friday by connecting a garden hose to my exhaust pipe and into my car window. Â I could not get a good seal and could not get the exhaust to go through the hose properly. Â I became frustrated and drove home. Â I’m against the idea of having my spouse coming home to discover my body, but I sat in the closed garage for about an hour with the car running. Â Nothing happened. Â I finally gave up and crawled into bed.
The next morning I learned that an extended member had killed himself pretty much the same time as I was failing to kill myself. The family is taking it very hard of course. I feel I have missed m opportunity to end m life and yet I still want to die. I keep thinking of ways to make it look like an accident but I can’t think of anything.
I’m tired.
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feel the same way
i feel your pain….just not tired…beyond tired…..what a beautiful world huh
Cars’ catalytic converters convert a lot of the carbon monoxide (CO) to carbon dioxide (CO2) so I’ve seen that there are instructions / kits to get the CO out of the exhaust and into the car cooled a bit. CO2 can suffocate also, but that’s very painful and it takes 10X the build up in concentration that carbon monoxide would.
A member of your family killed itself almost at the same time as you were trying to do the same.wow you think that your being alive is a miracle
There are no miracles, except those which someone perceives there to be.
river.song
Why so tired? What’s keeping you down? The better method would be charcoal but I don’t want you to do that. Think about your family, especially your spouse. I wish I had somebody in my life. If I did then I wouldn’t be here.