I know i havent posted in awhile, but ive just had a lot of new stuff going on. Some good and some bad.
2 weeks ago i was bored and posted a picture of me on fb..didnt expect a guy that i used to be best friends with to be the first one to like it then message me. Didnt expect to get 20 comments on it, all from my family yelling me to smile. I had nothing to smile about, so why bother?
Lets see, 7 1/2 hrs later and a lot of texting, that guy asks me out, i say yes, and the next day i cant eat, im shaking and cant calm down becuase my friend called me a whore for dating another guy and flirting with a different one. I also am breaking up with the current boyfriend for the new guy. I had my reasons and she unfriended me and completely ruined our friendship. That was awesome.
My relationship with the new boyfriend is everything i couldve imagined. We go to different schools though, and he asked my dad if he could date me, and my dad said he has to meet him.
We get to talk like an hour a day now and i always expect the worst when were not talking. My instincts tell me that it wont work out and im scared that it wont. Ive told him everything about me, and ive stopped cutting, but the ideas and thoughts are there everyday and i cant talk to anyone cuz they think im actually serious about it..
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When a person feels unstable, everything she does is affected by negativity, and then there’s that feeling of ruining everything, even if her intentions is good.
Can you make yourself feel better?
Because if you can’t do it for yourself, little by little, you won’t be able to help other people and make them feel good with you.
Does that help?