Im just tired…Tired of living…tired of being a failure. I don’t know what to do anymore. I really don’t. I feel like im drowning in a black pool…I just want to end it…end all the pain and misery im feeling. They label me…They don’t know…they just assume…They’re not with me while im in my room…crying…hating myself…slicing up my wrists… The person they see has been gone for a while…They can’t see it but im dying inside…It hurts really bad. Im getting tired…of everything…Everywhere i turn theres critics…messing me up…criticising me for what i lack…happiness…fun…whatever that stuff use to mean anyway…im not happy…i just feel….dead….walking down an endless dark road….to nothing…..
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Yea.. This is my last year alive… im in so much debt.. i cant over come.. im about to loose both my cars, my house and i gave up a year ago.. i just dont really have my plan in place yet.
You are allowed to be tired.
Giving up is forbidden. I know. I tried too.
If you are forbidden to end your life, what will be your next choice.
Yes, I am hard.
But this is what we must all accept.
BIG hugs!
Dragonfly_Mistress
What bullying is
Bullying is a judger. It sometimes judges. It is always wrong. It is never right. Sometimes bullied victims will see in the mirror how bullies described them. But they don’t know that they are beautiful no matter what. They have gotten to the point where they forget that bullies are just like virus on a computer. Viruses make us get frustrated. Bullies do too. It is not true what bullies say. If they say to go and die you think it is what you need to do. You don’t need to. Just ignore them or stand up for yourself even if have to do it alone. There is always a time where you just want to be gone. Well, if you think there is no one there for you… well you are wrong. You are worth it. Whoever that person is who cares about you then you are supposed to know that that person will tear into pieces if you die. Don’t die because of your problems in life. Don’t because if you die there is no coming back. Stay strong there is always a reason to live. If people say there is no such reason to live then they are just being negative like maybe always. They are the most wrong as they can be. Don’t believe the stuff that isn’t true. The negative things people say that are violent on what you should do are just a fairytale. No matter what people say online or at school are just a total false of sentences. There will be name calling at times but you know what??? It just means ______ as in NOTHING. If you self-harm yourself you are just doing that for no such thing. Doing self-harm will just make you get stupid. Bullies don’t mean it a lot. They don’t take the hurting words seriously most of the time. Just stay strong. Keep your head up. It may be hard to remember but don’t worry it will be alright. Don’t put a fake smile. Smiling is only if you mean it. Not for faking. Get help if you need it. There is greatness in life if you find it but you have to fight it. The darkness you have to fight. Darkness is tough to fight but it is worth it to fight it still. You are strong maybe not physically but definitely mentally. The happiness in life may be hard to find for others. Thousands and thousands of people have died from being a bullied victim. Decreasing death is brightness to god. If you believe in him then you may not have a bad time after all. If you don’t then just believe that everything is going to be alright. Anything could happen. Stay strong…..
If you are a bullied victim then staying strong means be strong don’t do self- harm. Doing self- harm makes you get weaker not stronger. It makes your depression get worse. It makes you get slowly closer to suicide. The steps that slowly to coming to be committing suicide (well for most people) –
1. you get bullied
2. You cut yourself
3. You have a meltdown because the bullies make you cry
4. Then you commit suicide such as taking pills, jumping out a window, doing drugs, etc.
The reason why you commit suicide because of bullying is because you think suicide is the only way to get out of the conflict. It’s not. People think that is the only way that is the fastest. Well people are not patient.
There is other ways to prevent bullying. You could get help by going to therapy, reporting it, telling the police foundation, etc. There are better ways to stop bullying (like I said). If you think suicide is the well…. There is more sunshine you haven’t discovered. The discovered sunshine is better than suicide. It tells you that you are worth it. There is no such thing as suicide is the answer. No matter what suicide is never the answer? No matter what anyone says in this world? Yes. Yes is the answer. This thing and this thing are called common sense is something you should know about. You should know what it is. You should know what it tells you. You should know everything about it to help you. It will let you know what the good thing to do is and the right thing to do in many ways. Like I said, you need to stay strong so you cannot get weaker and weaker. Just believe that bullies are just some things in life that make you pause from being strong. If you ignore it then the bullies will be the stupid ones not you. You weren’t the stupid one at any time. You did nothing wrong so how are you the stupid one?! There is no way you are the stupid one that is one thing. The things that matter in life are staying alive. The things that don’t matter are the bullies. Bullies are just some talking machine that says words that mean nothing. It is just something you need to never worry about. Don’t worry….
The bullying is wrong
If you are bullying people then stop it. It is just making mankind turn into something that may make you miserable. You probably won’t admit it but it really doesn’t make you feel better if another one is hurt. You could have bad things happen to you. Bad karma may not be happening now but it will happen soon. It could be one mistake that is bigger than your entire years you have lived. You could end up having bad luck such as getting shot, getting cancer, doing drugs, being in jail for the rest of your life, etc. If you are going through a bad time then get some help and go to therapy. Bullying is not the answer. It won’t make you feel better. It will make you worse. Think of it….. What if you have been told to die… what if you have been judged all the time without doing anything…? How would it feel if that was you? Here is a poem that helps you realize what you have done-
Why is she wearing make up??? You told her that she is ugly
Why is he wearing a hoddie??? He is afraid that you ganging up on him
Why is he emo??? He can’t handle you bullying him
Why is she not eating??? You…you called her fat
Why are people running away from you?? You beat them up everyday
Why are people giving you dirty looks?? You irritate them by bullying them
Why is he having a meltdown?? He can’t handle the bullying anymore
Why is she not showing her arms and always wearing a jacket??? She cut herself because of YOU… You bully her and beat her to the ground all the time
Why are people crying??? You bullied their friend and you went too far that….now she is gone
Why has he not come to school for 5 months??? Obviously he is gone
Now do you think what you are doing to people is wrong? If you think then you can stop and become someone who is nice and has a good heart. Stop bullying….
Poems
Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will hurt more than anything else, it feels worse than getting shot, it feels worse than getting run over, words have their own way of hurting, words can really hurt more than anything…
Stand
To
Upon
Bullies
Stub (Stand To Upon Bullies)….. Bullying stops NOW!
Words can hurt… Be careful what you say… you could be the bully… Words mean something…
Don’t give up. We all have our bad days when we feel like failures. But try to avoid harming yourself. Forgive yourself for failing. You’re only human. No one is perfect.