i am ready to die tonight. i just took 31 cipralex pills and have t3s as well as random high prescription strength pills for lord knows what. i have a full bag of 50 high strength advils too, i wonder what else i can find. once i start to feel sick/dizzy/who knows, i am going to tie a plastic bag over my head and fall asleep. i tried just the bag a bit ago and i did not like the feeling. i have some staples ‘anti-static spray’ that says ‘fatal if swallowed’ on the bottle so im thinking about drinking that too. my goodbye notes are all typed up. i even texted him one last time to tell him i love you once last time before i left and said goodbye. pfft. of course he doesnt care nor reply. hes probably the only one who could save me but its too late and the end will come for me tonight. im actually excited after taking the pills. now i cant turn back
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Sadly you will wake up three days from now in a hospital with organ damage being evaluated for your 72 hour hold which will begin AFTER you are evaluated. Sorry but the pills don’t work. This site does not allow discussion of methods BUT for the record I’d like to point many have come and gone in my time here, and one thing has been constant, OD on pills does not work. Over the years pharmaceutical companies have gotten smarter about this, so it’s harder to kill yourself with their products now. The main cause of OD related deaths are a result of using illegal drugs which are not made my companies who have want to keep their customers alive, the drug trade could care less, jsut as long as it gets people high. My POINT is the pills will most likely not work…sorry to ruin your hopes…and if he was really worth it he would try to help…trust me I’ve been there with time standing still between choosing death or staying because someone might care…a stranger saved me, not anyone who used to be considered a friend. So, stop think it through, rest up? Sleep tight wake up tomorrow think it over…I don’t know if it will get better…heck my life is still horrible and I still am considering my options to exit out of this sick life…just…some friendly advice from one tortured soul to another
thats why i am using the bag too… the pills are just for making me sick hopefully… or drowsy. i think it will succeed if i can manage to keep the bag long enough to suffocate. honestly i am sick of being depressed. ive been this way my entire life and i just cant do it anymore. even if i dont die tonight which i will try to do with all my power i will soon. i even considered putting myself infront of a train many times and i think if tonight doesnt work thats what ill do. or maybe ill just go there later anyway. sighhhh. i wish i had someone to save me kind of. but no one cares. and i certainly dont either haha
AtTheEnd is correct, you will probably vomit and/or suffer excruciating pain. My life’s a piece of sh!t too but unfortunately we can’t just swallow a jar full of random pills. We gots to plan.
BAG OVER HEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!! why are you guys missing that part lol 🙂
Suffocation is excruciating too, even if one chokes on their vomit.
Ghostgirl as I said in my comment….when no one who was my “friend” cared enough to stop and try and save me, a stranger on here stopped to talk to me. I’m a stranger to you, I’m here to talk to you despite not knowing you. I don’t pity you, I hate pity. Oh the bag over the head? Hm could work, meds might make you drowsy enough, but it’s hard to tell what a human will do once the survival instinct kicks in.
I knew someone who OD accidentally on SSRIs impulsively. Stomach pumped and time spent in the psych ward. If you do not pass out or vomit then it is just a trip to the hospital.
Not sure about the bag. Tried that once but my human instinct to breathe is too strong.
AtTheEnd is right. There are plenty of people who care, you just haven’t met them yet.
AtTheEnd is always right, for AtTheEnd is one of the old ones on sp, not in age but in time and knowledge and experience lol
Ghostgirl,
I’m in the same boat as you. My girl left me on January 3rd. We had been dating for 7 years, living together for 6. She had told me in the middle of December that she couldn’t wait to marry me. Then a few weeks later and she says that she hadn’t been in love with me for years.
I wanted to kill myself. I own a gun. It sits on my coffee table next to me. I still do. What you’re planning on doing is a permanent solution to perhaps a temporary problem.
You sound just like me. I helped my girl through nursing school. I helped write papers and study with her. She wouldn’t have graduated without me. Now she doesn’t need me anymore. She can make her own money and wants to do her own thing.
Give it some time. You’ll find someone better. You have your whole life ahead of you. Don’t throw it away for some asshole.
Talk to me or tell me to FUUUU off~
I’ve read a few comments listed above, yet it seems that most are mistaken. It is not for someone that they’re dying for. One can’t just turn the tables when all things have fail. A loved one can’t help, nor can they relieve the pain and suffering. Some people are just not meant to live in a world with hope, dreams, despair, agony.. etc.
A person is his own enemy, I’ve learned that the hard way. We are taught to believe that we need someone to rely on, someone to love and to succeed in life. I don’t think I’m much help, I guess I went off topic and.. well I’m not sure. It is true, perhaps you wont succeed with those pills, and yes you will end up in a hospital bed, like the first person said. I wouldn’t want to tell you better ways in doing so, err umm ideas. I was thinking of jumping of a building, prior to that take a whole bunch of pills get extremely high to the point were OD will occur n then jump. But there’s still that voice in the back of my head that I won’t succeed.. I’ll just wake up to be living more miserable (brain damage and in a vegetative state) than i was before.. then I will have to live with that for the rest of my being.
Why is it- let’s say that we live in a “perfect world”, why can’t we just be…. some people have gone through traumas and are left with disorders, yet some grow” into it. The human brain is a complex and very intriguing thing..
I wonder if we will hear from you again…
the key is to take just enough to pass out
Please throw up those pills now. 🙁
He probably hasn’t responded because he’s sleeping like you should be. The sad part is(if this is true) you’ve just made your life more miserable as you’re going to wake up in the hospital and be worse off. On another note, wow 31 pills,I wish I could just take 1!
You are screwing up your life. Laying down stains that only a passport and new nation will erase. Don’t talk about it. Think.
Everybody has a way, a fixation of how they’d do it. You seem to like a bottle of pills. Bottles of pills don’t work. The CO2 in your lungs will cause you to tear a bag off your head.
You’re apt to be around 20 years from now, suffering from talking about this now. Does that make sense?