I want to die so badly. There are thousands of other girls who are battling AIDS, cancer and other diseases, clutching to life, but failing, and there’s me, just crying and wishing that someone would slit my throat so I dont have to. Im just not good enough for anyone. Im not expected to have feelings, Im not expected to have wishes and needs, apparently I cant even choose my own high school elective courses, and after being screamed at about it, I am not expected to feel upset, they want me to be all smiles, hugging them and saying “I love you”.
Theres a bottle of pills and a freshly sharpened knife downstairs. Maybe its finally time to put them to use…
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I’m really sorry you’ve been treated so badly… 🙁 Who are they that want you to be a robot, dear?
SHOOT!!!! DONT DIE READ THIS FIRST…. DONT DIE YOU ARE WORTH IT…LAUGH AT THE THINGS BULLIES SAY TO YOU…. YOU ARE WORTH IT… IN EVERY WAY YOU ARE WORTH IT … YOU ARE A GIFT TO PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU…. AND PEOPLE DONT WANT TO LOOSE THAT GIFT… THEY DONT WANT TO LOOSE YOU!!!!. THERE IS THE BAD. THE BAD IS THE BULLIES/ THE PEOPLE WHO ABUSE YOU. THE GOOD IS IN ME TO KEEP YOU ALIVE. SO JUST PLEASE THROW THE PILLS IN THE WASTE BASKET AND PUT THE KNIFE BACK IN THE CABNET… AND JUST IGNORE THE BULLIES..BUT YOU DO NEED TO STAND UP FOR YOURSELF SOMETIMES..JUST SAY ”YAH YOU’RE NOT THAT BRIGHT KIDDO” …
You are completely worth your life. You may not think that you want to live but we are people and we all have feelings that we are intitled too…. I think you need to have some courage. I can tell by your writing that you are a strong person… Please dont die tongiht. fight for something. If its not your life fight for someone, something? I believe that you are strong enough and we will be here backing you up 100%