I have the ability to convince people out of suicide. I can help them stop self harming. I sincerely tell a surplus of people that they’re beautiful.
I can give people so many good reasons as to why not to do anything that could harm themselves.
But I can’t convince myself out of suicide.
I can’t keep myself from self harming
It’s impossible for me to believe I’m beautiful.
I keep my thoughts surrounded by the fact that I’m an ugly human being.
I’m such a hypocrite.
As a person, I’m happy about being human, despite the fact that can’t take care of myself.
It just sucks, you know?
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Suicide always seems like a bad decision when it’s someone else.
@Kasa Well… Kasa… I believe that, if you can show so much compassion in order to help others, then you are a beautiful person… You have a huge, beautiful heart… 🙂 And you’re not a hypocrite… If you want to stop being suicidal or stop harming yourself, then maybe you should try and understand better what you feel… the motives for thinking and acting this way… to understand yourself as a person better… Maybe you see suicide as a way to end the pain for good… I don’t know… You’re an amazing girl… and maybe you should OPEN YOUR EYES and see it too! 😀
Soooo recognizable…. :/
If you really think you’ve helped others in your compliments, think again. Beauty is something beyond the body. Should you feel it, you might be pleasantly surprised at the body you find yourself in over time.