How long has it been since I’ve heard your name out loud.. How long has it been since I’ve thought of you..? I’ve buried you down deep in my heart so one day when I can finally come to terms with my own suicide I can think of you… How many times have I carved your Initials in my flesh? How many days have past since you lost yourself? I only wish that you were here to guide me through everything… I’m like a child… still doing childish things… wanting to make adult choices… Jason… I miss you so much… Why did you have to abandon me so soon…. we could have had a life together… maybe a death together… It’s fine… I’m glad you’re out of this world away from horrible things…. I miss you best friend…. Â I’m pretty sure mom wants me dead… she feeding me pills and yelling at me.. In this hell house I’m not allowed to feel anything other than happiness….. Jason…
I’m lying here in a cold dark room
living without a purpose
and everything reminds me of you…
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