Panicking

Yes! I’m still going through the process and right now I’m at the first stage. I just burst into tears. I couldn’t sleep starting at 2:45 am and now it’s been about an hour, 3:51 am. I talked to my mom about my depression & that i took sleeping pills to end life. she did not take it well & also just told me to drink milk and go to sleep, rather than taking me to the hospital. So i also have a mother who says I’m alright.. and i have to play the part too in order to drop the subject because there is no help there. So tonight I prayed couple minutes ago because I recalled when I was with God I was a child and I was happy in believing there is a person watching over me who cares. Now I know most people are not religious and I understand you wouldn’t want to approach about the subject so I’m not going to put in full detail about church related things. But I find it useful for someone to talk to. Usually I call suicide hotline because they are available 24/7. Even at night time they will answer your call. It really helps to talk to someone in knowing someone is listening to you. I know it may sound weird but if you like I will be willing to talk to you over the phone. If that’s okay and not creepy? Because it may get exhausting to keep calling the hotline & repeating your story every time such as myself.