Uhmm. This is my first post or whatever and I think writing will help. I love writing and expressing my feelings. Alright, I’ve been depressed for about a year or so. I started noticing when all I did was cry every other day. Cry because my parents argue, cry because my older brother life is fucked up ever since his divorce. Cry because my moms sick and getting surgery. Cry because sometimes my boyfriend isn’t there for me. Cry because I remember my friend who died of cancer this summer. Cry for all this little things. It’s gotten worse to the point where I want to end it all, but I can’t I have to be strong. Some days I feel more sad than others. Today I got in a fight with my bf and little things like that trigger the bad thoughts. I’m trying to keep strong for my family, but I can only be strong for so long.
Peace out.
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It seems like you don’t think you’re doing a good job of staying strong. I think you’re doing great, with everything that’s going on it’s only normal for you to fight with your boyfriend. And you may need to stay strong for your family but they need to stay strong for you also. Sometimes you have to be selfish and put yourself first. If you feel like your always staying strong, maybe you deserve a break.
But remember things like illnesses happen for a reason, they bring people closer together. I hope you feel better than you did this morning, please keep posting, people care about how you are.
Keep staying strong,
Sarah x
Thank you Sarah. I feel much better. Thank you for caring and reading my thoughts.
Much love, Deya <3